I'm sorry if my memory is a bit hazy, but I'm quite certain that I did not direct the words at anyone, although it is possible that I might have been talking to someone when I discovered the filter had changed in some way. Please, you have to understand that those words were driven entirely by curiosity. You seem very steady with your decision of a perma ban. Maybe I could see the chat logs and possibly clear up any misunderstandings from what I wrote?
I'm not sure but I think I was in a private chat with Shirey at the time. I wouldn't have had any reason to insult him unless it were a joke. I could have maybe put the words into an insulting sentence whilst I was experimenting with what was no longer censored just for the sake of 'look at what I can say now that the censor is off!' or something silly like that, but I'm just thinking aloud here.
If any of the above was the case then I'd just like to stress that I really didn't have any disrespect for the server or anyone in it, and anything that I may have said while I was in that mind-state - I wasn't even thinking about who would read it let alone if I had offended anyone. In any case, it would really be mortifying for me to be banned forever for such a stupid mistake - it would really mean a lot to me if you could empathize with my stupidity and maybe even find it in you to change the ban to temporary. Even for a year; or two years. I mean I obviously wouldn't do something like that again, and even if I do I'll probably just get automatically perma banned; and if then, I won't even bother to appeal. I'd feel too stupid ':D