I want to just take a moment to express to you how it feels to not be seperated from my woman yet have been sleeping on the couch for the past 4 years. Its worse than being seperated. Sheer torture. I can understand. Just remember to NEVER let yourself feel like the victim. Even if it may be true, it does not help your mind and heart. Reality is subjective. Remind yourself that your ex is not doing it to you. It's just what your going through. Live for tomorrow,not only protect your heart, but let your heart grow from this. Be strong and hang in there.