Im sorry i dont mean to bring anyone down by my sap story but i have to vent it somewhere i guess. Im here in kansas city visting my grandpa and he got to meet his great grand son for the first time and honestly a smi,e hasnt left his face all week. But his wife pulled me aside one day and told me that hes acting strong but they dont think he has much left on this road. I dropped to my knees and bawled my eyes out for almost an hour. This man gave me so much hes the strongest man ive ever known and yet he struggles with getting out of his chair. Hes sick and cant breathe and hardly stand. It just fucking sucks my son wont grow to know this hero of a man. He raised me, he taught me how to be a gentleman and how to whoop ass and to al2ays d3fend those who cant. Hes the reason i love traveling because he took me coast to coast as a kid. I just cant fwthom losing him...... it pains me to see him struggling and yet to damn prideful to show it. Fuck man hes suffering so much he doesnt deserve this pain. Im sorry im just fucked and csnt sleep. I leave for home tomorrow morning and it truly scares me that this could be the last time he sees me..... and im losing it as i type this and thinking about it.... im sorry i just needed to say soomething i dont care for pity parties i just need to say it somewhere i guess.