It all started about 6 years or so ago. I first tried it a little at a time then when I officially became an "Idiot" I was hooked. Anytime I didn't get my fix I was shaking and having a hard time dealing with "my life." There were times I had to go long stretches of time with no fix. That was the worst. I tried other things to see if I could just have my fix but the real pure adrenaline I sought came from only one place. It was the highest quality even though it almost killed me more than helped me, I was an addict (look at my kdr). The funny thing is my son is the one who bought my first hit for me. He knew I was a virgin and had never done anything harder than small shots of things that gave me a buzz but never did quit sate my appetite for the hard core stuff. Not to put other sources down but none ever gave me the buzz that XtremeIdiots have. I don't believe I will ever even think about going in for treatment, because being free from the addiction I have isn't something I can visualize for myself. You know the real peasure is when I get up each day and prepare to take my daily fix is when I finally have it all ready and I know that Harry who I respect has the same addiction with one minor addition. He is hooked on pain. The pain I am speaking about is he loves a cold stainless steel shank shoved into his rectum and take from him the one thing every man wants, his family jewels. The things I have tried which makes me want more and more are things like the following: COD2, COD4, BF2, BF3, Crysis, WOW, Farcry1, Farcry 2, and many more. The world I came from was void all these drugs of choice, and I believe that is why I am so addicted now. The hardest thing I have ever had to admit and went to an "intervention" because I couldn't face the truth, is I am an addict!