Hey All,
So today, I unfortunately had to resign from my main employment. Now, some of you have me on Facebook, and as of right now, nobody there is aware of this and I'd prefer to keep it that way.
Some of you know I had taken a job as a 911 Dispatcher for my county in Ohio. I had recently been signed off that I could take all calls by myself whether it be an admin line or a 911 line. I was doing great at that. It was at this point where it started to go south... I was told I had to have my training completed in 6 months... and this training is supposed to take 1 year. Now, I'm a fast learner, but when I'm told "You have to learn to take calls and answer the Fire/EMS radio all at the same time... here ya go!" and thrown into it... I got a reality shock! I'm not as gifted at multi-tasking as I thought I was!!!! I was getting overwhelmed and quick! Had a supervisor barking behind me to answer the EMS radio when I had a 911 call in my ear trying to tell me where a "fire" was from a lightning strike (Which there never was one! stupid cracked out asshat!) and I had 3 Fire/EMS members also in my ear trying to tell me what was going on out in the field... I freaked!!! I had to step out of the room and regain my composure... it's been a struggle to try and do this for a few weeks and I sadly came to the decision tonight while I was there that I couldn't do it anymore....
I'm 33 years old and I don't have a career, I've never really had a steady job and I feel like I'm about to lose my wife and kids... I don't know what I want to do. I thought working in Law Enforcement and such would be my niche.. but apparently not... I still have my part time job at the lake I work at as security, however, that pays $8.15/hr and it's part time... no full time positions available at this point. I live way out in the country and anything of decent pay rates is an hour plus drive, moving isn't an option... so I'm screwed right now!! Do I go back to school for a trade like welding or something... I mean, I'm so confused at this point that I have myself sick. I'm a Type 1 Diabetic and my health is very poor right now. I've gained weight that I'm not happy about because I never have time to go work out while trying to work 12 hours shifts damn near 7 days a week... and both jobs are sitting on my ass all night....
Anyway... thanks all for reading my rant... I needed somewhere to vent and talk and this is the only place I can do it without being judged TOO hard... I can't tell my family yet, they will be pissed as all hell at me