Janey

I'm good at excel. let me know what's up

welcome Bexx. I haven't played with you yet, but it sounds like a you're good player.

Hey! you liked my idea. it will really fuck with the bunny hoppers.

I don't. I only have a few numbers even after being a member for about 3 years. Anyway, here's a clip of the hottest thing I've heard in a while.

@@cold fusion... call me. I need to be kissed properly

My MW2 Beta Server suggestions are 1. Change the poison gas to defrost gas 2. FEMALE AVATARS. I'm sick of being a big hairy man. why not have some female avatars, hell... put them in bikinis for all I care.

Wish I could get one, my car is broken down and I always wanted a truck. Been moving around. Ideally I want a camper so I could live in it instead of being homeless.

I collect key chains from around the world. I have some from prague, pakistan, Los Vegas, and other places. There are only about 25 in my collection so far. I can't afford to travel, so I get ppl I know who do to pick them up for me as they are usually very cheap. If you would like to send me a key chain from your city/country please pm me and I'll give you my address. *edit: I would also like to exchange cell numbers with anyone willing.

love you, Bob.... so FU

my prayers are with you and yours, dear friend

Thanks for being supportive and talking to me about all this. I am trying to better my life, but yeah, sometimes the depression is so overwhelming that even I'm surprised I haven't checked out yet. But I don't think of myself as a victim or a survivor... I just adapt to whatever happens. But I'm tired of this situation. All I really want in life is to be safe. To have a little place of my own where I can be safe. To have a job that pays enough to support my little life so I feel safe. I don't need anything fancy (except shoes...lol). I haven't felt safe since I was a little kid, I don't even remember what it's like. But yeah, that's my dream, my quest, my fantasy... to have a safe little life. This is where I am sleeping now. My computer is on the kitchen table and my clothes are in the boxes or hanging up above my washer/dryer. I've replaced the two blue saris with another green sheet.

@@RANDALL I've been on Celexa for a couple of years now. helps some. Also take Xanax for panic attacks (which suck), Estradiol as hormonal replacement (lost ovaries to cancer so I don't produce estrogen naturally anymore), Fiorcet for migraines (which also suck and make me puke), and lortab 10 for pain in both left hand and nerve damage in my back (epidural slipped in my back when I had my son years ago. felt birth on left side but not right... it was very weird). My meds cost about $200 total per month including the Tylenol pm. I tried ambien but it made my sleep-walking/sleep-talking much worse. Kept waking up in my car. If I don't take a sleep aid my dreams are so vivid that my kids and anyone who is around when I sleep, say that I scream "no, stop! Don't hurt me!" almost all night. When my son's girlfriend's kids came over a few weeks back I was asleep on one side of the living room while they watched tv on the other. They said I scared them to death... poor kids. Told them to always wake me up when they are here.

Edit:removed clip,don't want a ban hammer on my head.

I have always loved that quote. @@LandShark. Thanks for reminding me of it. It's my thoughts that are my demons right now. When I counsel others I suggest they do positive affirmations. I'm trying that, even though it feels foolish and like a lie... but who am I to ignore my own advice.

http://www.neworleanscvb.com/things-to-do/ also, here's some vids I used to play chess at the blacksmith's shop with friends all the time thew this in for you butt men. the dance is called New Orleans Bounce, it's similar to twerking On top of all this, we have several casinos, fishing, museums of every kind, swamp tours, haunted tours, paint ball, the best food on the planet, we are just a short drive from the gulf coast plus much more. The bars never close, we even have several burlesque shows. Best of all, I'm here and will cook everyone dinner.

Treated myself to this for $1.58. Love eBay. can still get something pretty once in a while even though I'm almost always broke. Should arrive before 7/13, so I have that to look forward to. Here's a couple pics. They call this a statement piece. I'm making a statement about the color green.

beyond my hand being injured and being unable to work;beyond being homeless and sleeping on my son's sofa until he moves in December (and I have no where to go then); beyond being dumped a few years ago after 13yrs together which I thought would last forever; beyond being alone and chronically untouched; beyond my brother dying and my sister losing her mind to dementia; now my daughter had estranged herself from me. she's been distant since Katrina when she went to stay with her Aunt (who is extremely rich), but since Christmas she hasn't spoken to me, accepted my calls and won't tell me why she has abandoned me. there is more going on, but that's a lot already. It's gotten to the point where I don't even leave this apartment except to shop for groceries. The only people I talk to on a regular basis is y'all. I can't tell my family, although a few months ago I was a bit suicidal and did talk to my son who helped me through it. My support system is XI and my cat, Oscar. I don't check out because he needs to be fed and we have tourneys coming up. I was really looking forward to going to xi fest and meeting y'all, but my car has a busted radiator and I have to come up with $170 for the repair so I can't even drive there. Guess that's why I want y'all to do xi fest here so much... so I can meet y'all. I do try to look forward to even the smallest things. But here I go, rambling and crying again. @@Damage_inc- don't worry, I don't drink unless I'm out with friends, which is rare. Yeah, I do sometimes take more pain pills than I actually need, but that's not that often either.. just mostly in game so I can play and have fun. Anyways, I'm sorry that I'm a "Debbie downer". Try not to be, just am lately. If I get quiet in game, that's why. If I sing in game it means I'm ok right then. my heart has always been on my sleeve, and my sadness shows like my slip hanging down.

(don't worry, no nudity guys)

actually, I've been singing to myself a lot, always have, and my finger is so used to pressing the talk button that I've been singing in game. I'm sorry if this annoys y'all, too.

An Apology for my depression depressing others. If me talking about being depressed has bothered you or made you sad, I am truly sorry. I would never want anyone else to feel this way. Y'all are the only people I talk openly with about my depression, and lately it has gotten a lot worse. If i have effected you in a negative way, I'm honestly sorry. Just let me know and I won't be so open about it.

I grew up in the late 60s early 70s in southern Louisiana and that word was/is a very common word to hear from anyone. In my area it is used to describe a subculture rather than a skin tone. As in, "my brother used to be a n***word, but he got his shit together and he's OK now". A lot of people tell jokes that use that word but then again any race, creed, orientation, handicap or normalcy is not off limits to friendly mockery. The term coined for this is "casual racism". It's when you are just being funny and don't mean any harm. There are people who still use it to describe a skin tone, but i think that's just mean. My father was very prejudiced against anyone with skin darker his but my mother was not that way and taught us kids not to judge people until we had all the evidence (her father was a judge). We had a very nice (black) lady that cleaned the house once a week and she was like a member of the family. My dad used the "n" word very often, but never around her or about her. She was a lady in the truest sense, just like my momma was. She wore gloves and a scarf to church just like we did. She was the first "person of color" I knew and having her in our house was always fun. When she retired we were all sad and never hired anyone to replace her. I remember my brothers flirting with her, age didn't matter... it was all in fun. flirting always is. She would blush and tell them to hush. It wasn't until i was older that I understood the flirt, it was always about her giving them their goodbye kisses and them wanting more "sugar". she would laugh and blush and they would hoot and run. Guess my point is that anyone who lived in the south during that time period has more than likely said that word. Honest people who don't lie about it are condemned. And if we are going to shun someone for their behavior in their personal life I have a better list: Justin Bieber, Kayne West, Tom Cruise... let's shun them. *edit: the flirt my brothers used with her was about brown sugar being sweeter. like I said, didn't get it until i was older.

My daughter plays the pregnant teen mom of 3. (she has no kids in real life.) It's on YouTube for 2 days only. Enjoy