Thank you Spears.
My sister will be 70 next November, yet the other night she started crying and calling out for our mother who died in 1983. My niece, who is a year younger than I am, was there and ran into her room to check on her. My sister said not to cry, then started singing "don't cry for me Argentina". This is extremely unlike my sister. She has basically lost her mind. She does have some lucid periods, but they are short and few now. My poor sister.
I understand that death is inevitable, and am trying not to fall into another deep depression (my mental disorders are severe depression and panic attacks). So I'll be in the servers a lot this weekend just trying to stay positive. I will probably talk too much and sing and flirt... these things make me feel better somehow. Please understand that when I'm like that it's a coping mechanism. I'm forcing myself to not be depressed. If I annoy anyone by talking/singing too much, just say the word. (when i sing on the mic it's because pressing the talk key in game has become a habit... muscle memory, and I don't do it intentionally. Just let me know if it happens and I'll mute myself. Please don't mute me, though, because I do give good intel and really want converse with y'all. Basically, I'm alone almost 24/7; y'all are the ppl I talk with the most. Y'all are my friends and the only ones I have told about my sister other than my son.
EDIT: I just called her and she was lucid. She is extremely private about her health and refuses to talk about it. I'm not even sure she knows/remembers that she's ill.