BigPapaDean

Sassy I relate to your feelings. Before my marriage went south of the border we had a little Pomeranian who we called Lolababy. The are know as the heartbreak breed with good reason. They are fairly hardy with a couple exceptions they are susceptible to collapsed trachea and many of them die from it. We watched her suffer long bouts with it and I tried to tell the ex that she should have her put down to stop the suffering. One tome she was having a horrible bout so the ex decided to take her in and have it done. She passed that night in the arms of my ex. The next day I happen to be on the internet searching for info on this horrid disease and came across some info I hadn't seen before and then the guilt set in big time. If I had know I could have saved her from a whole lot of suffering. I really battled with the guilt but then I realized that what I didn't know I shouldn't blame myself for. Remember you did what you thought was the best for you friend and leave it at that if you don't want a whole mess of other probs because the guilt trip never ends. Both of us went into major depression and she tried the stupid thing of trying to get out the easy way but it wasn't to be I was planning things and finally realized that was just plain ole stupid. So see Sassy I do relate and I went through several therapy sessions before I was fine. I still cry once in a while but its just from missing that beautiful little friend of mine! God bless you Sassy! Hugs to you!

I have read this before but when I follow these step by step instructions I cannot find the "Stereo Mix" location! Please give me a better map or if it might be under another name or whatever.

This morning I was downloading all the current maps from the down-loader and had to restart my pc several times to get it to work properly. I got all the COD4 Acemod done and was starting on the DM WaW maps when I had to reboot and when it loaded back up the monitor went to the big electronic retirement home in the junkyard. I didn't know exactly what is was at first as the power and fans all came on and no noises could be heard. I noticed there was a faint flickering from the monitor but it wouldn't show anything. I have several old parts here so I begin testing each one of the things in my pc to see what I could narrow the problem down too. I even replaced the old hard drive and nothing. I have an old antic monitor like one of the first generation flat screens so I had to search for the adapter for it and now I am posting this on it. I get paid on Jan 3rd so I can't buy anything till then. I will try to play but if I can't I just wanted you to know why! I also would appreciate any help with suggestions for a new more modern monitor and please keep in mind I have a monetary consideration to keep in mind. Hope to see you in the servers!

Welcome to the most Prestigious club in this clan. It has the stickiest banner of any other club in the world. There is one thing you have left to do now, FIND YOUR OWN DAMNED CORNERn as this one is MINE!!!

I have had mine set this way for years. The thought that sleeping saves power is a myth. I always found that when it was asleep it was very difficult to wake!

Here is the third server!

I hope this is better!

with aaan exception. The Great Northwest is having a higher than average rainfall. The mountains here are far above the rate for record snowfall over the record of just a few years ago. Now any body want some feel free to grab some from us here! We average between 35 inches to 135 inches per year. What is the average there? I forget how to convert from metric to inches so please help me with this.

I owe my debt of gratitude to him and all those who served and gave their all for my freedom! R.I,P. Norman

Happy birthday Frenchi!

Frenchi je suis touché dans mon cœur par votre très MOTS compréhension. VOUS AIMEZ-MOI SUIS VENU POUR CONNAÎTRE LA VALEUR DE LA VIE DE

Happy birthday Belle!

The following I already posted in my other post but for those who may have missed it here is why I feel so sentimental right now. I appreciate all of your thoughts and well wishes. Just knowing that I have friends who actually care bring a tear to my eyes. When I went back home to see my mother and sibs some of them actually thought I came there to get pity from them and to live off of them. I went there just to see them because I needed their support but what I found from some of them was a stone wall and a hard line stance. I guess some others had taken advantage of their hospitality so if that was the case I can't say I blame them but I never said anything with the exception I wanted to move home and go to school there. Here I find open understanding arms and open minds about when I am not handling things so well. I want you to know for those of you who doesn't know that there is a member here now that had she not been the kind of friend that really cared I would not be today. When my life fell apart at the seams big time I fell apart and was contemplating suicide. My ex did the same but she actually tried to end it all. When I saw how devastated my kids were with it I stopped myself and sought help. But there are countless hours when no one else is around and that is when my best friend Giggles came into the picture. I was at my lowest and she begin talking to me on xfire. Most nights all night weeks on end trying to help me stay sane and not sink deeper into that horrible pit of muck that kept dragging me down into it. Eventually I was able with her support to seek out professional help and get the meds I needed to get much better. She is still my best "buddy" I love her as my own sister. Thank you Giggles you gave up your life to save mine and I pray some how some way God will reward you for you heart of gold! You helped me see that my existence really does make a difference in some peoples lives and again I say "thank God for you my guardian Angel" People this is why I stress so much take time to notice people of low estate around you and help when you can and have the ability. You just may save a life when you do!

I appreciate all of your thoughts and well wishes. Just knowing that I have friends who actually care bring a tear to my eyes. When I went back home to see my mother and sibs some of them actually thought I came there to get pity from them and to live off of them. I went there just to see them because I needed their support but what I found from some of them was a stone wall and a hard line stance. I guess some others had taken advantage of their hospitality so if that was the case I can't say I blame them but I never said anything with the exception I wanted to move home and go to school there. Here I find open understanding arms and open minds about when I am not handling things so well. I want you to know for those of you who doesn't know that there is a member her now that had she not been the kind of friend that really cared I would not be today. When my life fell apart at the seams big time I fell apart and was contemplating suicide. My ex did the same but shr=e actually tried to end it all. When I saw how devastated my kids were with it I stopped myself and sought help. But there are countless hours when no one else is around and that is when my best friend Giggles came into the picture. I was at my lowest and she begin talking to me on xfire. Most nights all night weeks on end trying to help me stay sane and not sink deeper into that horrible pit of muck that kept dragging me down into it. Eventually I was able with her support to seek out professional help and get the meds I needed to get much better. She is still my best "buddy" I love her as my own sister. Thank you Giggles you gave up your life to save mine and I pray some how some way God will reward you for you heart of gold! You helped me see that my existence really does make a difference in some peoples lives and again I say "thank God for you my guardian Angel" People this is why I stress so much take time ti notice people of low estate around you and help when you can and have the ability.

BnB I want to thank you for the wonderful Christmas card. You once again made me smile! Bama and you are wonderful people and I am glad to know you even if its just on the internet.

Please remove mp_not_a_cave you spawn with a huge red thing on you and can't see hardly anything!

Most of it comes from, believe it or not, facebook! Lol!

TO fucking late Hxtr I had a great Christmas! :D hahahahahaha!

I wasn't expecting much from Christmas this year as the kids and I have kind of been estranged for lack of a better word. I figured I would be spending it here at my desk and nothing especially good would happen, but I was very pleasantly surprised. I was sitting at my desk and when I logged into facebook my son sent me a message asking me if I wanted to go out with him for dinner on Christmas. I naturally said yes. The problem was here in the small town of Monroe Wa there are very few if any places open on Christmas night for dinner. The only place I could think of was the local theater which is open every Christmas as it is normally their busiest nights of the year. When him and his partner arrived in town they happened to go by Denny's Restaurant, ya it's the same Denny's we all like to criticize and make fun of. Well as it happened We didn't really eat as he ordered an appetizer and I had a hot chocolate. He then pulled out a deck of cards that we use to play when he was a little kid, Phase 10. We sat there and laughed and visited and had a blast just being together. I have never been very lucky at that game but I just happened to win this game. I came home and was tired so I took a nap and when I woke this morning I had a splitting head ache but my spirits were soaring as I had some family time with my son. He seemed to enjoy it as much as I did. We didn't exchange gifts but we did exchange our love for each other. This is the best Christmas in my recent memory as my long term is biased by what I may or may not remember that is actually true. If you ever have the time and opportunity take it to spend with your family and friends and you will not regret it if you just let them know you love them. Now I need to get ready to face a new year that should hold many changes in store for me. A new place to live and several other things like that. I am now looking forward to it and beginning my life away from this hell hole I now live. God bless you all. BMD

Amen and a+1000

oKAY HOW DO i TAKE THIS MOUSE APART? i HAVE FINALLY FIGURED OUT IT IS DEFINITELY a broken wire