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no i'm not sucidal these events happen in the last 1-3 years of my life, do you think this story would help people? 1st time i was suicidal I was in new place, and started the school year without knowing anyone my Junior year of high school. I never really talked to anyone much except 1 kid in my physics class, mainly slept in school 3+ asthama attacks a day everyday for a year, I was depressed and had thoughts about ending my life during the school year, because i felt like a financial burden to my family. when my mom broke her arm I just felt guilty and helpless because I couldn't help around the house like I used to my asthama was to bad, and she would get angry everytime I had an asthama attack. It went on like this for a month, i felt alone, and like i was a bad person, and then after talking to my best friend 2 nights on the phone in a row, I finally told my mom how I felt and I planned to use a toxic gas I could make with chemicals in the house. I got instituionalized. 2nd time I was suicidal was after 5 months of watching my girlfriend at the time suffer, she told me I saved her life 3 times while we were dating and I gave everything in me trying to save her, and be there for her all the time when she needed me, she was also very abusive after the first month after which it was like I was giving her $100 a day, and she gave me a quarter a day, and I spent and average of 2 hours a day listening to her problems, and how she wanted to kill herself, I know what your probably thinking I should have told someone, I told my counsuler, I told my parents, I told her friends, I didn't tell her parents becuase she told me that during the summer she told her mom 1 time how she felt sucidal and her mom laughed at her. she would make fun of me, or belittle me whenever I talked about my feelings on anything most of the time, and kept telling me she kill herself without me, and each day that went by not being able to help the pain, it hurt me inside more and more, I also felt like a trapped animal but then a miracle happened she got hospitalized, and I told her parents about her being molested when she was 7 while she will still hosptialized which I don't think she ever forgave me for, at the point I had very low self esteem, and I had not been able to sleep at night for more then a hour or two, and I had been feeling more depressed each day for about a month, because she just got really on the edge after reading this book called "girl interrupted", she tried to kill herself 1 time in april, before read that book she was sucidal, but she hadn't attempted it since we started dating, she tried to kill herself by overdose on aspirin, and she got very needy, that month she called me 3-4 times while she was having a panic attack, and was telling me she wanted to get a knife and kill herself, I tried to comfort her, and told her I loved her, and talk to her about 10minutes to 2 hours telling her I would hold her tomorrow on the bus, and at school as long as she wanted, because she had told me at some point I was the only thing in her life that made her pain go away, each day I wondered if I would see her the next day.the day she got back from the hospital we got into a arguement on the phone, the next day we broke up offically, and she told me to go fucking kill myself, and also told me that day if her being a bitch to me was what it would take to make me stop caring about her she would be the meanest bitch she could be, and she kept true to her word, and she was really cold hearted and mean,and blame me for causing her to feel sucidal, and told me it was my fault, she told me she hated me, and that it was all my fault, and some of her friends on fb, told me that I was a horrible person, and that I had ruined her life. One of her best friends told me to the face she hated me, and that why my ex was sucidal was all my fault because I didn't let my ex talk to her friends (this was the friend who would slap my ex in the face every time my talked about being sucidal). the reason i'm describing what happen is i can't put in to words how much pain I felt, and how guilty I felt. I got saved by someone, i'm not going to say how becuase I don't want to trigger suicide in people

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i've been having this problem for a week, on my computer the resolution the game has saved the moniter can't use or display that formation it just goes black i've tried reseting, and i really don't want to reinstall this is on windows vista i've had this problem before it just hasn't ever been permeant before usually ijust restart the computer and it goes back to default setting then it's fine, any suggestions?

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2 times during high school someone was coming in from the school from the outside and i opened the door both times i didn't have money for lunch and i got free lunch the little things are what matter

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I love that song i listen to it when i'm playing cod4 you should try trigger happy

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one of my friends from high school was hospitalized during basic trainning he will be medically discharged from the airforce basically he had blood pooling in his lungs and his lungs collapsed and if his lungs ever collapse again or are stresed he will die, his name is Grant Sturm please pray for him

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