Randall, this life is a gift. All yours, and no one can live it for you, or tell you how to live it. You are free to choose your path, for good or ill, as you see fit.
I still wake up every day with wonder at this creation, and what each day holds. I guess what makes this life precious for me, is being useful and productive to others. Going to work, meeting challenges, and being as good as your word.
Another friend is coming home under hospice care, and I'll spend time with Rich while his life passes. Ain't fun, but it's part of the cradle to grave saga. I'm still in awe of my wife for all she endured before dying, and can't let Lori down by forgetting what a magnificent prize life is.