BigPapaDean

Last night was a night like I never want to experience again. I just couldn't fight this feeling and I can't even explain what it was I was feeling, but I asked God to help me and then posted here and a new dear friend responded and I tried what she said and it helped a lot. Pretty soon my son gave me a couple of his anxiety meds and soon I was back to me being mellow again! I have an appointment on Feb 9th that I am going to talk to him about this as it seems to be more of a problem now that ever before or at least me reacting that way! Please keep me in your minds and hearts! Thank you Cindy Spiva you were an angel sent by God!

Feeling bored out of my mind but nothing I normally do to break the doldrums has helped. I think I am having an anxiety attack but different than before! Also in a very weird mood today!

Matthew 7-127 There came unto him a woman having an alabaster box of very precious ointment, and poured it on his head, as he sat at meat.8 But when his disciples saw it, they had indignation, saying, To what purpose is this waste?9 For this ointment might have been sold for much, and given to the poor.10 When Jesus understood it, he said unto them, Why trouble ye the woman? for she hath wrought a good work upon me.11 For ye have the poor always with you; but me ye have not always.12 For in that she hath poured this ointment on my body, she did it for my burial.This scripture shows how even those closes to Jesus was more concentrated on what THEY could do than having their focus on Him. He wasn't condemning them for the thoughts but rather wanted them to redirect their thoughts toward Him. Some times we judge someone for a deed we misinterpret as a wasted deed, when they were directed to do what they did for another more important reason. After all who is the one who gave Himself for our transgressions? We shouldn't worry about things we do not understand and control be keep our mind upon our own selves considering we can't see and know everything about any given situation! We have times all the time where we can do good deeds but it may be somebody's last day so why are we focusing on others and what they are doing instead of what the good Lord has for us to do on the special occasions? Those opportunities are not an everyday thing but only when God directs us to move in that direction! You may be the last person to show them love and comfort! The feeling of missed opportunities are not something anyone needs to be carrying around with them because there again it takes your attention off of Christ and His Blood and what He did for you! Open your hearts and minds and let Him lead you places you can never go without His leadership in your life! You will have the fulfillment in your heart you never knew existed! This isn't for reward but fulfillment of His spirit like you have never experience before. The reward will come but not because of this! It will come simply because He will give it to you! Just keep your eye singled upon Him!God bless and Stay safe! Love you all, Dean!!!

In today's world we face a multitude of challenges as believers! Some are so sly as to hide within the very core of the belief system we incorporate to live by! I don't like using this but it's in the news everywhere so I feel compelled to use it as an example here. The way the extremist Muslims get children to do their most wicked deeds is they make them a promise. These young boys know what women are so this is an easy sell in a society and culture where life is not valued very high. They tell them if they wear a vest with a ton of C4 explosives into a crowd of unbelievers and blow them selves up that they will have a reward of 72 virgins waiting for them in the after life. What boy wouldn't be enamored by such a promise? They key here is it has to be non-believers! I use this to show how RELIGION pollutes any belief system. If you think for a moment this hasn't crept into the Christian faith you are sadly mistaken. I have asked many believers this question,"Why do you believe in God?" And almost unequivocally it is the following response! "I want to go to heaven." Why do you want to go to heaven? "Because the streets are paved with gold and all those other fantastic things." You see their first thought wasn't about how God loved them and saved them through the amazing precious "BLOOD" of Jesus it was about things they don't have now. I have learned that this life is so fleeting that the things we don't have are not necessary or needed! I also have sat in testimonial sessions and heard the same kinds of statements in testimonies! I am sure they love the Lord but He doesn't seem to be at the forefront of their minds. We as Christians and who believe we are nothing without Christ should take a moment each day to ask Him to help us in this change we should make to receive the fullness of His promises! We should be focusing on the re-warder and not the reward! This is an attitude of today's world we live in! They seem to always ask,"What's in it for me?" I have also heard evangelist use the reward to lure people into confessing faith in God when they were really confessing faith in the reward! You see there is a word that describes this and we don't think it has anything to do with ourselves as that is just wrong. Yet we let it slip in and corrupt us to where we take our eyes of the one that makes it all possible. Are you "GREEDY?" I dare say that there have been and still are greedy! I learned some hard lessons about this when I was out in that cold dark world among people who struggle just to survive. Some of us begin helping others when we could and the whole attitude of the ones we affected changed. We who have what we need should be able to accomplish this among us, right? I will leave you with that question and please speak your peace! God bless each and every one of you!

Any doubters now?