BigPapaDean
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https://www.facebook.com/video.php?v=10153410928040724
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Fire I know how it seems the world is trying to devour and eat you up! It feels like you are in a world all by yourself and that there is no help for you! You also feel a certain responsibility to your parents! While in the real world that may be true but you are not dealing with the real world in this depression state. You are dealing with the world your brain has created to try and protect you from the real world. You see your body and primarily your brain is in survival mode at this time. Why wouldn't it be with all the shit you been through? I say this because I deal with this daily and have severely for over 5 yrs now. I have, to a certain extent, been this way all my life and never knew it til I fell into this mental world I now deal with. I am not saying your feelings are not true but that this feeling of being alone is not the real world. Your Dr thinks she is doing the right thing by trying to force you into making some physical advances when your mind isn't there yet and ready for it! I know how you feel and I am still living with this horrible debilitating disease. You feel there is no hope and wonder if it will ever end. My brother who had been down a road similar to that I now travel told me a long time ago, "Dean you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel but believe me it is there." For two years I looked for that light then one day from out of no where it was there. I want you to know that there is hope for all of us in some form or other. You are not alone in this battle of survival but you have brothers and sisters walking the same road and feeling the same feelings! Rest assured this too will pass! I had to reinvent my whole life as I had lost most of my memory of my past life. Today I have climbed back out of that dark horrible hole and remember the old life but today I am not that old person of 6 years ago. I want to encourage you to keep fighting and keep asking yourself what you can do to make it another day and keep climbing the ladder that will lead you back to your world as you want to live! I don't know if you believe in God but my faith helped me greatly as I needed someone to rely on when no one else was there. I am praying that you will find your way back to the life you want and need! God bless you my friend! I am always here if you feel the need to talk to someone who understands!
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And I like to give reach a rounds then snip snip! lol
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https://www.facebook.com/video.php?v=10153029394632994
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I just logged in and tried to look at my post My wife is missing and I tried to access it thru the notifications button where it showed me a certain someone liked it. When I tried to access it there I got the attached message. Then I tried it from another one in the same notiffcations button and got right thru to it. It happened twice so I figured I better bring it to someones attention!
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Getting wet?
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As much as I dislike the Patriots organization Tom Brady still one of the very best qb's of all time! Having said that why is his mouth open? lol
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Well the bears need their beauty sleep!
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A husband went to the sheriff’s department to report that his wife was missing. Husband: My wife is missing. She went shopping yesterday and has not come home. Sergeant: What is her height? Husband: Gee, I’m not sure. A little over five-feet tall. Sergeant: Weight? Husband: Don’t know. Not slim, not really fat. Sergeant: Color of eyes? Husband: Never noticed. Sergeant: Color of hair? Husband: Changes a couple times a year. Maybe dark brown. Sergeant: What was she wearing? Husband: Could have been a skirt or shorts. I don’t remember exactly. Sergeant: What kind of car did she go in? Husband: She went in my truck. Sergeant: What kind of truck was it? Husband: Brand new 2015 Ford F150 King Ranch 4X4 with eco-boost 5.0L V8 engine special ordered with manual transmission. It has a custom matching white cover for the bed. Custom leather seats and “Bubba” floor mats. Trailering package with gold hitch. DVD with navigation, 21-channel CB radio, six cup holders, and four power outlets. Added special alloy wheels and off-road Michelins. Wife put a small scratch on the drivers door. At this point the husband started choking up. Sergeant: Don’t worry buddy. We’ll find your truck.
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Welcome! I love giving fellow clansmen REACH AROUNDS! LOL
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Happy birthday!
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Thanks for posting this at Amazon as I usually buy most things from there! I will get it there when I get paid!
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I am on the prowl again as I beat another mouse to death and I am looking for one that is wireless and durable as well as a vewry good gaming mouse! I saw this and am seriously considering getting it on payday! http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=173-000X-00026
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I watched for a while and no one could get in the server! Needs to be looked at
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Now there's someone that I can waddle with! Welcome!
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Guys please keep this going as I am learning a lot from all these points being made!
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If you're going to claim it then show your proof otherwise it's no better than what you are saying about them! Just saying!!!
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Which one is in the drivers seat?
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Fulltilt Poker Chat Ban.... XI members fault
BigPapaDean replied to hxtr's topic in General Discussion
They transferred it to me! I guess that makes you a tranny! lol -
Kris Porter I wrote this not too long after my breakdown! It is indicative of my search for myself as well as the love of my life!My Deep Red Rose!As I walk through my garden of beautiful flowers, there are blooms of red, white and blue.There are yellow, pink and purple and like the rainbow many flowers of a variety of hues.Every one of them are beautiful and lovely each in there own right but none, no none of thoseHad the appeal and the aroma as the most magically alluring of all flowers my dark red rose!I have looked both high and low, over mountain and in the deep set f island covesNever to find the flower that steals my heart and draws me to it like cooing doves.Then on one delightful morn just as I was about ready to concede in my searchThere in the valley on a knoll I espied her sitting there like a canary on her perch.And the song she sang was so beautiful to my longing ears of my heart I cried.Because there was the sound in my ears of my heart, but I thought it had died.To my amazement this beauty that few eyes have ever seen was my deep red rose.I was afraid to touch her lest I slay the moment then she cried, Take me and heaven knowsI have been here all these long lonely years waiting for you to come and free me from my rootsAnd give me my freedom to experience what you have to give to me the love of loves.Now we can fly away forever more you and me on the wings of white love doves.I have no want or need of pleasure or sensations as you give me it all with a single touch.Your breath gives me life I had lost and your beauty has my heart in awe just as much.I wake in the morn and the first thing I do is feel to see if you are definetly, undisputebly realBecause of you I am alive in my soul again and this wonderful love I again am able to feel.Love is a fleeting emotion but when its spirit bound it grows and adheres to each heartSo that the two hearts beating unite to become one in mind, body, and soul.
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Happy birthday!
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Kris PorterMy Deep Red Rose!As I walk through my garden of beautiful flowers, there are blooms of red, white and blue.There are yellow, pink and purple and like the rainbow many flowers of a variety of hues.Every one of them are beautiful and lovely each in there own right but none, no none of thoseHad the appeal and the aroma as the most magically alluring of all flowers my dark red rose!I have looked both high and low, over mountain and in the deep set f island covesNever to find the flower that steals my heart and draws me to it like cooing doves.Then on one delightful morn just as I was about ready to concede in my searchThere in the valley on a knoll I espied her sitting there like a canary on her perch.And the song she sang was so beautiful to my longing ears of my heart I cried.Because there was the sound in my ears of my heart, but I thought it had died.To my amazement this beauty that few eyes have ever seen was my deep red rose.I was afraid to touch her lest I slay the moment then she cried, Take me and heaven knowsI have been here all these long lonely years waiting for you to come and free me from my rootsAnd give me my freedom to experience what you have to give to me the love of loves.Now we can fly away forever more you and me on the wings of white love doves.I have no want or need of pleasure or sensations as you give me it all with a single touch.Your breath gives me life I had lost and your beauty has my heart in awe just as much.I wake in the morn and the first thing I do is feel to see if you are definetly, undisputebly realBecause of you I am alive in my soul again and this wonderful love I again am able to feel.Love is a fleeting emotion but when its spirit bound it grows and adheres to each heartSo that the two hearts beating unite to become one in mind, body, and soul.
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Fulltilt Poker Chat Ban.... XI members fault
BigPapaDean replied to hxtr's topic in General Discussion
I pleaded with them to keep you banned but they said you paid them more than I did!~