BigPapaDean

I need to say something that God has been doing for me! To all my lifetime long friends you all know I love each and every one. I have memories that at one time I lost but am now regaining them and those memories are like a life line of their own to me. They come when I need them to give me hope and encouragement at the times no one else is around. Today in this world we live in we have a thing commonly called "social media". Because it is a world wide access thing we can meet people across the globe we would never have know existed before, but they can also be in our own home town and because we are from different generational times we never met. This "social media" has given me opportunities to have friends world wide. Many who I have become quite fond of as we interact and I see how much we have in common.Most of you know the challenges I deal with daily as I share so others know if they have like challenges they are not alone. In doing so I have been lead to some amazing people that my intentions were to help them, but in so doing I have been blessed beyond measure. Some of these people have been very much a God send to me not me to them. They all know who they are and I want to say thank you for being there when I needed you most! If the opportunity ever arises I would love to meet each and everyone of you in person and give you a big hug for being my friend! Who would have ever thought that an online gaming community would provide the chance for me to make some life long friends! Some whom in the last few years have since passed on to the next life. I trust they are now safe and wrapped in that heavenly blanket of love as only He can give! In parting I want to say I have had two opportunities to have two wonderful lives and I have and still am making memories in both! God is so good! God bless you all with His precious love as only He can do!

Last night was a night like I never want to experience again. I just couldn't fight this feeling and I can't even explain what it was I was feeling, but I asked God to help me and then posted here and a new dear friend responded and I tried what she said and it helped a lot. Pretty soon my son gave me a couple of his anxiety meds and soon I was back to me being mellow again! I have an appointment on Feb 9th that I am going to talk to him about this as it seems to be more of a problem now that ever before or at least me reacting that way! Please keep me in your minds and hearts! Thank you Cindy Spiva you were an angel sent by God!

Feeling bored out of my mind but nothing I normally do to break the doldrums has helped. I think I am having an anxiety attack but different than before! Also in a very weird mood today!

Matthew 7-127 There came unto him a woman having an alabaster box of very precious ointment, and poured it on his head, as he sat at meat.8 But when his disciples saw it, they had indignation, saying, To what purpose is this waste?9 For this ointment might have been sold for much, and given to the poor.10 When Jesus understood it, he said unto them, Why trouble ye the woman? for she hath wrought a good work upon me.11 For ye have the poor always with you; but me ye have not always.12 For in that she hath poured this ointment on my body, she did it for my burial.This scripture shows how even those closes to Jesus was more concentrated on what THEY could do than having their focus on Him. He wasn't condemning them for the thoughts but rather wanted them to redirect their thoughts toward Him. Some times we judge someone for a deed we misinterpret as a wasted deed, when they were directed to do what they did for another more important reason. After all who is the one who gave Himself for our transgressions? We shouldn't worry about things we do not understand and control be keep our mind upon our own selves considering we can't see and know everything about any given situation! We have times all the time where we can do good deeds but it may be somebody's last day so why are we focusing on others and what they are doing instead of what the good Lord has for us to do on the special occasions? Those opportunities are not an everyday thing but only when God directs us to move in that direction! You may be the last person to show them love and comfort! The feeling of missed opportunities are not something anyone needs to be carrying around with them because there again it takes your attention off of Christ and His Blood and what He did for you! Open your hearts and minds and let Him lead you places you can never go without His leadership in your life! You will have the fulfillment in your heart you never knew existed! This isn't for reward but fulfillment of His spirit like you have never experience before. The reward will come but not because of this! It will come simply because He will give it to you! Just keep your eye singled upon Him!God bless and Stay safe! Love you all, Dean!!!