BigPapaDean

My son said something to me last night that answered some questions I have had for sometime about why my awareness of me and others seems to be at a level most never achieve or are even aware exist. We were out getting some things we needed and we were discussing how to become cognizant of escape routes when driving so as to avoid bad situations while driving. He told me he is able to do this because he is acutely aware at all times and being thus he already has this incorporated in his driving. Well I have had and still do have when under stress or high anxiety the ability to have that same high acute awareness of things and especially other people and myself and what is going on with them and myself. After I had my nervous breakdown it seemed I could hear someone speak and I knew what bad things had happened to them and also how to improve that situation so it would become a positive and not a negative. The further in time I get from that event the less available it has become to me with the exception of when my stress or anxiety is back to those same levels as they were back then. This as I said has been increasingly less frequent but still there. One thing that triggers this same reaction is when I get extremely angry at someone or something. It's like my spirit is totally in tune with everything around me. I now know that to a certain extent I have always had this but was unaware of it and how it worked. Where I experienced it most back when I was young was when I was out in the woods with my gun and hunting. There were numerous times I would walk right up on creatures and they wouldn't even know I was there, and I was not walking quietly either. Other times I would sense them way before I saw them. It's like I was really super aware when I was out there. I found a video that talks a little about this and what kind of people who have this ability and what makes them unique! It describes me to a tee with one exception. I am not a good leader even though I do love helping and relating to others!