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We are in a blizzard warning here in Northern NY from 1pm today until Monday 7 am and it was just raining so we are flash freezing as the temp plummets.  Lights are already flickering so it should be interesting.  Here's a pic of what we are looking at.
 We are in the light pink!   Merry Christmas! lol

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Ouch!  Hopefully you get everything worked out and have a speedy recovery 🤗

The lead singer of the band Monster Truck borrowed one of my guitars about a year ago to do some recording, he loved the tone of the P90 pick ups. Well it was down at their jamspace so he got all the boys to sign it for me!!! 

You're all sweeties 🥰
So quick update again. It's going up and down, yesterday was a real shitty day, today is better again. Although I am sleeping like crazy today. I can walk a few meters now with support and walking like the oldest, still walking grandma you've ever seen, but I can get on my feet! Other than that, they tried to stop my epidural today and take over with over with other pain meds, but that was too painful still 😕 tomorrow they're gonna stop it for real, because otherwise risk for infection is too big. I'm a bit scared of that, but we'll see. Anyway, I'm slowly getting stronger again and if plans don't change they should check the new connection Monday. If it's alright I should be allowed to eat and drink small bits again, instead of only feeding me by a build in stomach tube like they're doing now. 

Prayers for a smooth surgery and a speedy recovery.  The whole thing sounds terrible but I'm glad that your doctor's found it early on.  😘See you in the server soon!

Prayers for a smooth surgery and a speedy recovery.  The whole thing sounds terrible but I'm glad that your doctor's found it early on.  😘See you in the server soon!

Dear Members,
                        I want to start by saying thanks to those who have been here and know me and how I am. I am going through a really hard time right now because I gt hurt at work and they are trying to claim that my diabetes is the reason for my condition. The pictures I am about to share are what has happen to me and I am trying to heal. Monday I have to talk to a lawyer in hopes that they can help me. This just happened last week and I want to thank those so far for the support it is hard wanting to fight but I feel that all my life that is all I have done. I do not give up but this may break that. This is serious for me and is affecting me very emotionally. I have always try to do what is right and to be a good example to those that have worked under me.

Hey everyone,

I just wanted to let you all know that I’m probably gonna be offline for a while and tell you a bit about what I’m going through right now.

A few years ago I discovered that we have a rare genetic mutation running in the family which causes stomach and breast cancer. I had my own DNA checked and I also carry the mutation. The stomach cancer is the worst part of it, because it is very very difficult to check for it. I’ve been at risk since I was 20. If bad cells would spread at any point beyond the stomach, there is basically nothing the doctors would be able to do for me. Same thing if I would get any physical complaints at some point. So in the past years I’ve been under surveillance by the best specialist in my country and they did find cancer cells. They say the bad spot looks calm (not growing through the walls of my stomach), but because it’s so difficult to check them right and because I’m still so young, they’ve advised me to take action. And the only possible action is to remove my full stomach in surgery (the global guidelines are to do this surgery right away when someone is just carrying the mutation, the check ups are new). And yes, it is possible to live without a stomach. This is what they will do in surgery:


So that’s why I’m getting surgery coming Tuesday and I’ll be gone from the server for a bit. I don’t know for how long, because recovery is so different per person, as are the long term complaints. So I either might be back quite soon, being all bored from not being able to do much, or it might take me a while before I have energy to do anything at all. We’ll see. Anyway, as you can imagine it will be a very intense surgery and recovery will take a long time. I’ll have to figure out how much I can eat at once, what kinds of food my body is able to handle after, a whole new rhythm of eating every two hours without any feeling of hunger, and all the symptoms my body is gonna throw at me whenever I make a ‘mistake’ in these things. Etc etc.

That being said,  I just wanted you all to know.  Also, I’m very bad at responding to texts and messages, especially when there are many and I’m not feeling well, so please don’t be offended if I won’t respond to any or I would respond with an emoji only 😬 Just know that all and any support is appreciated ❤️

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Yes! Love it!! 😂😜

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Soo..
Triplets 😆

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You are 5'6"

I'm 6'2"

4'11"

I am 6'2" - here I am standing next to our company's private jet.

Twinsies 😂

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hmmm never heard of him or you