Purple you need to step back from all this crap and clear your head by any one of hundred ways. First YOU need to take care of YOU first. Then if you have energy to do for those you love then fine., you are the most important person in your life and will always e. That is NOT being selfish as it sounds. You also need to sit down with a pad and pen and prioritize the different people and things and responsibilities. If you set aside some quite time for you every day even if its only an hour out of every day you will find you will begin to relax and become your self again. You can't be afraid to move on in your life from jobs or relationships either. If you are then you have become a slave to the job or person whatever the case maybe. Its because you are so tight in yourself is why you are getting this feeling in your stomach and also your friends and fellow workers sense this tension in you. Do you have some vacation time coming? If you do do something just for you so you can get back to being PURPLE KUSH the guy we all love and know! Purple I have been in your shoes and it takers being the man you want to be to make these changes for the betterment of your life. If you relax so will most of the people around you!