Randall my friend! I can tell you without a doubt the best is in front of you! Six years ago I lost everything I had and my electricity was turned off. My wife left and I was all by myself to find my way back to the living. My brother who went through much of what I did told me there is a light at the end of the tunnel and some days you will wonder where it is. I did. One day I was walking home with my knees giving out on me and I told the MAN upstairs I needed help and I needed it fast. I had wandered the streets for 2 years as staying at home during the day time just was not my cup of tea. I proceeded home after stopping and resting countless times and when I opened the mailbox there was the answer to my prayers. I now have my granddaughter living with me 3-4 days a week and I had thought I would never have any grand kids. She is the apple of my eye and a year ago I was blessed with the second grand daughter via my daughter. Life is good, not perfect but good! Soon tho it will be perfect! Hang in there my friend and you will not regret it and it will turn good for you!