BigPapaDean

Okay so you have a couple new pets.... Well I woke up a couple days ago and found this sitting in MY CHAIR! I thought WTF???

For years I have had sever swelling in my legs and could hardly find shoes that fit me to be able to go anywhere. About 9 months ago, because my skin is terrible dry and has always been that way, I scratched my right leg. I didn't think too much about it at first then it begin to spread and get worse and worse. Back then I didn't have any medical and little prospect for that to happen til October of 2013! Friends and family told me several times I should go get it looked at but I couldn't afford the co-pay every 3rd day I went in. Finally medicare kicked in and I was covered to a point.The Dr's office told me they would discount me but O had to pay the co-pay amount. I am supporting 3 people here and up til now with no food card to help out. When I finally got to see the Dr I was put on a rigorous program to get my high blood pressure under control as that was what was causing the problem. That took about two weeks then they referred me to the local "wound center" Just blocks from my house. Sounds good huh? Well I can't walks even one block so that was not and easy thing to accomplish. I have a friend who from the depth of her heart is pure gold and she stepped forward and promised me she would help me as long as she could. The treatments went well then as my life sucks at times my friend wasn't available to take me to the center. This happened twice and I suffered sever set backs both times. Finally they decided because of this being my history that I should qualify for in home care. This is simple a temporary program to help people like me to get the critical care they need. That's when things kicked into high gear with my recovery. Today my nurse told me as of today my wound was filled in and within two weeks I wouldn't need her anymore. My problem is I do not know if my friend has the ability to help me anymore as her vehicle was totalled and she has no ride anymore. I have tried to contact her and have been working on getting qualified in a local community transit program for people just like me who can't walk to the closest bus stop but they will come pick me up and take me to my appointments. I am not diabetic but I do have what is known as venous ulcers and they are quite painful and can cause you to loose your leg without proper care. I live on the second story of a three story condo complex. We have no elevators or I could simple get a electric powered wheel chair and go that way. With no way to get up and down the stairs that is simply out of the question. Today I am quite anxious about not knowing what to do nor what will happen. I will cal the community service today and see if they have any information on my application and it's process. I am hoping and praying that this will work itself out but only God knows what will happen. The reason I am writing this is not for sympathy but to inform you in case there are any reading this that you make sure this kind of thing does not happen to you. I would love to hear your stories of victory and healing. I need to remember that this too will pass. If I can just get over this hump and finish this present process I will have a whole lot more freedom and won't be tied to my Dr all the time. Oh how I miss that freedom. I will continue to play in the servers and do my best to remain pleasant but if I have a bad day PLEASE forgive me! See you in the servers!

Thank you for the info

After the maintenance done earlier today I tried to use the XLR Stats just to see if it had been fixed. Well when I logged in to it it goes to a down load page. Does this mean we download it ourselves to use it or what? Just curious!

Grats To the both of you! I only made it to 28 yrs. I wish you many more years of happiness together!

Can I be the one to spank his ass @@Giggles ?

then again when it stated it was abated!

Funniest thing I have ever done on this server was throw the damned knife then thought I missed and charged the victim and stabbed him then the fricking knife I threw caught me and stabbed me in the back! lol! I do this alot now lol!

Giggles I believe you are saying that by not playing his maps the players are voicing their opinion and having said that get them the hell out of here!!

We get screwed without doing any screwing!

In the ace mod there is. It says, " Die bitch"! You wanna knife then come over there!

You need to find a group for people just like you so you have someone to relate to. At first you may feel uncomfortable but hang with it and you will see how much it helps! Good luck!

Landshark this is great info for me and any and all who have similar disorders! Thanks for posting it!

I love your response here. I have had the opportunity to help a couple rape victims deal with their pain as my wife was brutally raped when we were dating. I know most all those triggers and this before I had triggers to actually deal with. Because I had first hand I did not need to read tho it may have saved me time in figuring it all out. Today we are no longer a couple but she will be effected the rest of her life. Thanks for reading my response. I didn't mean to get personal with you just straight to the facts. Thanks again.

Hmmmm! Yes it sure looks sweet to me! Now where is your old vehicle so I can have one? lol

I'm still the up close and personal kind of guy and will stick you with it that way!

it does help the pain in my hands but not the numbness!

I am touched by the empathy some of you are showing. I am doing much better these days yet the culture I grew up in was ti keep people like me in a closet and don't talk about them. To those who feel embarrassed to have some with this or any mental disorder I say this. Come out of your closet and walk into the 21st century. The means for treatment has gotten so vast even tho there are tons of studies and research left to do. I for one will not let you off the hook because I embarrass you or it may make you look bad. Now having said that let me tell you how I deal with this thing. I have held the hand of my maker thru this whole ordeal and when I needed His guidance I asked for it and He led me to the source of help available for me. I tried going to college for retraining and failed, but I discovered they had a program to help someone like me. I included only 5 treatment sessions but my Dr in my case changed it because she knew I needed the help badly. I told you this to show you even in failure there was goodness and I received much needed advice and counselling. My journey has taken me out on the street for 2 years where is disorder is rampant. The problem is there they can't afford to get help and therefore are left untreated and left to the cruel world to try and survive. It took me into a world that is so much different than the one I live in today. I am extremely glad for this journey I am on because it helps others to seek critical help when they are initially ashamed. This is a disease where pride has no room to exist. That comes later when you are well, if you are blessed enough to be so. Like I have said there are so many unanswered questions that need to be answered and if this is the beginning of the help you need please do as other have done and just pm me. Take back your life and be the person you are and not what you feel now. God bless you all.

Congrats!!!

When you get high how do you feel and what sort of things do you do? I feel like am drunk but it seems time has been suspended. Most importantly I feel no pain! LOL that's a good feeling! I also really get the munchies to the point of over stuffing myself lol! Sometimes I get really really horny, but that is rare! What do you do?

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Pharticus do you have a degree or for that matter any course of study in this disease? If you do you are so out of touch with reality as to what I wrote. You lack empathy for this type of disease. As far as me choosing how to react you are ignorant there too you totally are in the dark ages about this disease and until you do your home work you might want to refrain from posting about a disease you know little or nothing about. I have lived with this all my life and tried all those bible verses you like to quote problem is they are talking to spiritually sick people not mentally ill people. People that need freedom from the captivating grips of sin not people like me who am already a believer. I use to be a pastor and taught all those things you are promoting but in mental illness cases They simply do NOT work. I have good spiritual thoughts daily and even minute by minute but when if someone crosses that boundary and triggers my anger I can't control it easily at all and then it becomes the persons problem that triggered me. I hate being this way and meds only help to a point but counselling does nothing but makes me aware of certain ways to try and avoid situations. I pray and talk to God constantly and for you or anyone to assume I don't by just reading this is a total mistake on your or their part. I have been able to counsel many people just like me and got them some help to get a long in life. I appreciate you considering my feelings but my feelings for the most part are a small piece of the cause of my reactions when I hear or see a trigger. Don't ever think someone like me can do this all alone they need family support and friends who know that you really don't like how you are. I would trade places with you in a heart beat but then I wouldn't be bearing my cross would I?

Looks like you photo-shopped it to me!

What this does for you is free you from the bondage of re using that damned condom over and over again. Grats you filthy rotten whore!

He was advertising for his brothel!