Primal, I am saddened by this news and my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Some other XI members that know me know that I have lost 2 little boys, most recently my 4 year old son. It was the most difficult thing that I have ever been through. You said that you are the strong one in your family, and that is important. But do not forget that you need to grieve also. Do not ignore your néed to cry or let your emotions out. Sometimes you will just want to be alone so that you can have your own little breakdown. I really feel for you and your family right now. It is something that you cannot truly understand until you go through it. If you ever want to talk, xfire or PM me. Talking will be hard right now, but you will get to a point when talking will help.
I will leave you with a poem that I really like. In fact, we printed this on the funeral program for my son. It was perfect.
Little Angels - Author Unknown
When God calls little children to dwell with Him above,
We mortals sometime question the wisdom of His love.
For no heartache compares with the death of one small child
Who does so much to make our world, seem wonderful and mild
Perhaps God tires of calling the aged to his fold,
So He picks a rosebud, before it can grow old.
God knows how much we need them, and so He takes but few
To make the land of Heaven more beautiful to view.
Believing this is difficult still somehow we must try,
The saddest word mankind knows will always be "Goodbye."
So when a little child departs, we who are left behind
Must realize God loves children, Angels are hard to find.
God Bless you and your family Primal.