Heyyyy.... I had the distinct pleasure of living major clinical depression in my 20's. Words can't describe the many layers, facets, breadth & depth of major depression. It excoriates you, warps your sense of self; shit, it changes who you are. Everything takes on a tinge of desolation; the sun seems blisteringly cold & the mornings were- for me- the worst. Apathy, melancholy, anger, paranoia, deep sadness way out of proportion to anything happening in one's life. I was fortunate to find a counselor to walk with me through my travails & provide me with the skills my parents couldn't & didn't. On the bright side, there's not much that can trouble me any more & I have a greater true appreciation of life & its joys.