Prayers being sent your way pal.
Please don't despair, as nothing on this planet is for sure... i have seen miracles change things overnight. Not saying that is going to happen, but positive thinking believe it or not helps a lot. Our bodys and minds are in sinc. Try to stay positive and think of being whole.
I myself am a walking miracle. When i went into the hosptial, they were thinking of taking my left arm!! I fould this out from my mom afterwards, (noone wanted to tell me i might lose my left arm while i was in hospital) but not only did I not lose my arm, but I now have 98% of functionality of my left hand and arm. And I am left handed so...
I am telling this to you so you can see that nothing the doctors say is written in stone. XI was a big part of helping me keep my spirits up in hospital, so just keep on doin what you are doin, and don't get depressed. Think happy thoughts, (You granddaughter) and try to stay in a positive mood.
Love ya Dean-O!
You are a good person who has had many shitty things happen to you. You are loved and appreciated. Hang in there pal!