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Thanks for sharing, br0ther.  Mortality sucks.socks.  ...& I agree with you, get everything square with the people for whom you care.  Your parents' death really drives home how short our time is.  Took care of my mom ❤️ during her final years, & the main reason I took nursing years ago.  My thoughts are with you, Storm & please feel free to holler if you wanna talk. 🙏 

Yesterday morning my Pops lost his fight with Cancer. He went peaceful and on his own terms. The day before he decided the pain was too much and wanted to be induced into a coma and no feed tubes or IV and let him shut down. We had a VERY cleansing and theraputic afternoon of goodbyes, video calls to those who could not see him (fuck you covid and your restrictions) my brother sister mother and I all had 1 on 1 talks with him, he was ok with his choice and more worried WE would be ok with it. We were, we are shattered, but we will pull ourselves back together, there was no putting Pops back together this time and he knew it. Yesterday afternoon they were supposed to induce the coma, we got a call at around 730am that he took a turn for the worse and to come there, Mama told them to let him know we are on the way. Well Pops being Pops found that off switch he said he has been looking for for a week now, he didnt want us to see him pass and he flipped that switch inside before we got there. He went calmly and peacefully with a nurse holding his hand. 
He was surrounded by so much love all week the RNs were in tears daily saying they have NEVER seen such a close family and a family so full of love, we were confused, its just the way we are, they said unfortunatly not many in the hospice have that support and thats saddening in itself
So with that being said, I implore you to tell those close to you that you love them, dont shy away from 3 simple words, dont hold them for just your spouse or family, love openly and freely, tell your friends you love them, tell anyone and everyone close to you that you love them, take the weirdness out of saying it and it will become a natural thing to say, I have SOOOO many friends guys and gals I have no problem saying I love you to when parting ways even if for a short time, I was lucky, I got to say goodbye and I love you to my Pops before he went, many dont get that chance, so dont pass up a chance to say it because you never know if you will get that chance again!
Thank you all for your kind words,thoughts,prayers this last week, I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!! ❤❤❤
Raise up a glass in my old mans honour, the world lost a good one!

We took this one a couple days before he passed "Surrounded In Love"

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A few know already but my Pops is stage 4 cancer for the last 2 years, he has taken a very steep decline this last two weeks. He is currently in hospital and they are saying 2 weeks tops before he passes. 
I am not a praying man, would never ask for prayers, but good thoughts and good vibes are always wanted and needed. I am a hippy at heart
We have come to terms over the last 2 years with everything, even managed to get him out to the mountains for the 1st time. Just got back from taking Mama to go see him, 53 years married they have been!
Hes been the rock of this family and its gonna be a couple shitty ass weeks ahead but we will get through it as a family and had to let my 2nd family here know whats going on
So good thoughts that when he chooses to let go he goes pain free and surrounded by love and much love to you all!
Heres me and Pops shorty after finding out about the cancer
 
FUCK CANCER
 

omg with some of my home made hot sauce 
 

I am going bengals, Can't stand cali anything, and I fucking live here. Can't wait to retire and move out of this shithole.

I am going bengals, Can't stand cali anything, and I fucking live here. Can't wait to retire and move out of this shithole.

I am going bengals, Can't stand cali anything, and I fucking live here. Can't wait to retire and move out of this shithole.

The same can be said here in Palm Beach County.. 

It will end when you're 6" under or in a pot. 😅🤣

To me that was one of the best movies so far. BTW great call snow white.

I am going bengals, Can't stand cali anything, and I fucking live here. Can't wait to retire and move out of this shithole.

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Yellowstone
 

Been a while since I got fresh ink... have had this appt for 7 months waiting!!! My artist is a busy guy. Wanted a demon hand coming out of a skin tear in my back and the nails digging into my shoulder.. on other shoulder an angelic hand resting/guiding. On drive here had an idea... I called my Mommy and had her take a picture of her left hand with her rings and wedding set and going with that instead! Here is the demon hand one and he is putting the line work in on Mommys hands as I type this on my phone... body near done at this point with the abuse...with do shading on Mommys hand another day

 
And here is stencil on on other side he is killing me with right fucking now...owww

Don't do it, He will never measure up to our standards. LOL welcome to the forums little man.

Don't do it, He will never measure up to our standards. LOL welcome to the forums little man.

Ended at 0100 with me an beer goat chatting about ammo am guns, great conversation between him and I. great night with all that showed .

Ended at 0100 with me an beer goat chatting about ammo am guns, great conversation between him and I. great night with all that showed .

I don't care what people say, I love playing with you. 

I do it every weekend.

I do it every weekend.