RANDALL

Hindsight is 20/20. I pray for presence of mind but don't always have it. This has bothered me all day long. I said that I was leaving because of game mechanics, not the people, but I take back that last part. I wad bullied from 1st grade until the end of high school. I have been taking anti-depressants since I was 17 to stop suicidal thoughts in my head. I think back to the people who have made my life difficult for no reason, and @ANGU5 is one of them. As I mentioned in the 147 mod thread, Angus verbally harrassed me day after day when my Dad was dying of cancer in 2015. I would take my Dad to his treatments and it made me sad to see a strong, proud man reduced to a weakened shell of himself. I would play freezetag to escape when I could to try to have some fun. I don't know why Angus had such a problem with me, but he made my life miserable. To hear that person on CoD WW2 tell me I should kill myself brought back memories of when Angus would incessantly provoke me to respond to his trash talk. I do not want to be associated with him and will not play here as long as he does. It is easier for me to leave. He already said he is not sorry. He may not have known what I was going through at that time, but it should not have mattered. No one should act like that.

I was not planning on making an official post, but I am leaving XI. I announced this on the 147 mod thread, but there are a lot of good people in this clan who I formally wanted to say goodbye to.
I have stated my frustrations lately, but none of that really matters.
As you might have seen, I made some youtube videos this weekend. Two of them were for Call of Duty WW2. The reason I made those two videos was because on Saturday I was having a really good day of gaming after getting the first good night of sleep I've had in weeks. In a post-game lobby, an angry man told me to kill myself because he thought I was cheating. Next map, I was on his team with a bunch of his friends he was partied up with. They proceeded to team kill me five times in a row, and then the angry man tried to throw a stun grenade at me to slow me down. He then followed me around the map and tried to jump in front of my gun to get me to team kill him and eventually kick myself after the third time. I still proceeded to get the most amount of kills on my team and the least amount of deaths. This went on for the rest of the day. I do not deserve this kind of abuse. It made me feel like I should just quit gaming all together. In the past, I have faced similar verbal abuse in our servers during a tough time in my life. No one should have to face this kind of unwarranted harrassment. We join our servers to relax and have fun. Some people try to take out frustration in their lives on innocent people. I have had enough.
I wish XI nothing but the best.
Your friend,
RANDALL

was this an XI member that did this,,report them if so,,,then like everyone said,,just take pride in the fact they think you hack and they cant handle you whipping their ass!!!  everyone needs a break now and then,,,take some time and think about it,,

The most part I enjoy of >XI< is, they are there.
To have a second PC and load up our games and hear ""Hey [NAME] is that you?" , who doesn't smile to hear that.
 
Edit; I forgot: !FU
Have fun.

Ill miss you randall

Posted this on the wrong thread earlier.
@Sharpe I appreciate the homework you have done to dig through the code, but in my opinion the Saritch in the previous mod was overpowered. It had no recoil, no bullet spread, and no crosshair sway while no other fully automatic assault rifle had that privilige, at the cost of a slow reload time. I like the AK-47, but it was mostly unreliable long range. You have a good eye, and I don't like being outshot at long range when I am hardscoped aiming at you with a sniper rifle because you have a laser beam weapon with infinite range and stopping power with Armor Piercing, even with a silencer. Since everyone used the Saritch, you never had to worry about running out of ammo or using Scavenger because you could always pick some up off the ground. I did not have this luxury with the AK-47 because no one used it for the reasons I mentioned above. I haven't tried the Saritch in the new mod, but after watching some of google's videos, while there might be a slight difference, maybe now it is less overpowered. I understand you want a reliabel weapon, we all do. Yes, maybe you can't spam long range, but maybe try tap firing it like a semi-automatic to see if the accuracy is better. As for me, I can't even shoot you with my .44 mag right now, so if you miss a few rounds, it doesn't make a difference to me. Maybe against some of the overpowered LMGs it will, but one thing I am glad I have learned while playing CoD WW2 is you can't have everything. 
This is my opinion. Please don't explode.
 

I respectfully disagree. 
My best friend is a retired professional gamer. I sat and talked with him for four hours tonight. I explained how complicated this new mod is and long story short, he recommended not playing anymore. I have my frustrations with Server 1, the only other XI server I play on, with how it seems the W1200 shotgun has been nerfed. After watching the video I posted of the new mod, I can't say I can recommend our servers anymore. It has nothing to do with the players but the game mechanics themselves.
This might seem spontaneous, but I have been thinking about this decision much longer than my four-hour talk this evening. @Ruggerxi @ROCKAPE you can take my tags. I quit. For the people who anxiously wait to call me a hypocrite or rage quitter for whatever reason, go ahead. Your opinion will never matter to me. Last time I left the clan and rejoined, I was told it was my last chance. I understand and I accept these terms.
A few shoutouts:
@pitbullpete I will miss you. You are fun to play with and bring positive energy to a mostly toxic environment.
@THE MEEK  Your mentality as a freezetag player is the right way to play. Selfless, not selfish. Defrost first, then shoot, until overtime.
@T-Rat You are a class act and a prime example of a good admin. I always appreciated your  good sportsmanship and warmly greeting me when I join Server 1.
This month is my 10 year anniversary of playing Call of Duty 4 on PC. It's been a good ride. It's time to focus more on my health and transition mainly to a weekend warrior to play video games, if at all.
V/R,
Jonathan Randall

I appreciate the work Sammy has done to add an anti-Heist capabilty to the server. Although, there is still a compromise that is hard to deal with that is not worth the frustration to me, and it is my choice to just walk away. It still bothers me that a perk like that can exist. How a defenseless person can be taken advantage of by a greedy person. It irks me for a different reason. I have a little sister with special needs whose life has not been easy. 

Wow RobMc, be more mean why don't you?  Everyone has issues, everyone has problems, and it is OK if someone wants to explain about his own issues so let's not bully someone for trying to explain his personal heartfelt difficulties.  Shesh.  Randall, you are a great player, imho, play what you want, ignore the "haters" and "winers" and those that annoy/bully/tease whatever it is that pushes your buttons.  (And remember this.  If you are being bullied/harassed for you in particular it is because you are whipping their butts and they are mad, jealous and envious. ) These are just games, and seems to me those of us who game do it for a release, to get our minds off of our troubles, to relax, for fun, for a laugh, whatever it is.  You be you and do what you need to to be happy and have fun.   (Suggestion: Don't join things/clans be a guest but don't belong - that sounds more like what would make you happy.)    Here is a suggestion play more like me (terrible shot and easy to kill) and no one will accuse you of cheating lol.   What, why are you laughing?  ?

You would be in the server at the same time it was happening. I have a problem bottling up emotions. I see other admins like Roxy step in to stop arguments all the time. No one stood up for me then.
I want to make this clear. Angus has been nicer to me since my Dad has passed away, but Sharpe has told me about how he has been treated. When I announced that I was leaving XI and saw him say he wasn't sorry and then accuse me of having a small mind, I was angry. I have been weaning myself of my medication for the last three weeks because I have been feeling better. I care a lot about people and try to be respectful. I was disappointed and I apologize for my posts on the 147 thread.

Hindsight is 20/20. I pray for presence of mind but don't always have it. This has bothered me all day long. I said that I was leaving because of game mechanics, not the people, but I take back that last part. I wad bullied from 1st grade until the end of high school. I have been taking anti-depressants since I was 17 to stop suicidal thoughts in my head. I think back to the people who have made my life difficult for no reason, and @ANGU5 is one of them. As I mentioned in the 147 mod thread, Angus verbally harrassed me day after day when my Dad was dying of cancer in 2015. I would take my Dad to his treatments and it made me sad to see a strong, proud man reduced to a weakened shell of himself. I would play freezetag to escape when I could to try to have some fun. I don't know why Angus had such a problem with me, but he made my life miserable. To hear that person on CoD WW2 tell me I should kill myself brought back memories of when Angus would incessantly provoke me to respond to his trash talk. I do not want to be associated with him and will not play here as long as he does. It is easier for me to leave. He already said he is not sorry. He may not have known what I was going through at that time, but it should not have mattered. No one should act like that.

I was not planning on making an official post, but I am leaving XI. I announced this on the 147 mod thread, but there are a lot of good people in this clan who I formally wanted to say goodbye to.
I have stated my frustrations lately, but none of that really matters.
As you might have seen, I made some youtube videos this weekend. Two of them were for Call of Duty WW2. The reason I made those two videos was because on Saturday I was having a really good day of gaming after getting the first good night of sleep I've had in weeks. In a post-game lobby, an angry man told me to kill myself because he thought I was cheating. Next map, I was on his team with a bunch of his friends he was partied up with. They proceeded to team kill me five times in a row, and then the angry man tried to throw a stun grenade at me to slow me down. He then followed me around the map and tried to jump in front of my gun to get me to team kill him and eventually kick myself after the third time. I still proceeded to get the most amount of kills on my team and the least amount of deaths. This went on for the rest of the day. I do not deserve this kind of abuse. It made me feel like I should just quit gaming all together. In the past, I have faced similar verbal abuse in our servers during a tough time in my life. No one should have to face this kind of unwarranted harrassment. We join our servers to relax and have fun. Some people try to take out frustration in their lives on innocent people. I have had enough.
I wish XI nothing but the best.
Your friend,
RANDALL

Thank you. This makes me feel a little better. I am having a hard time getting over the grief I feel right now, but it takes me a while to get over things that I care about.

I was not planning on making an official post, but I am leaving XI. I announced this on the 147 mod thread, but there are a lot of good people in this clan who I formally wanted to say goodbye to.
I have stated my frustrations lately, but none of that really matters.
As you might have seen, I made some youtube videos this weekend. Two of them were for Call of Duty WW2. The reason I made those two videos was because on Saturday I was having a really good day of gaming after getting the first good night of sleep I've had in weeks. In a post-game lobby, an angry man told me to kill myself because he thought I was cheating. Next map, I was on his team with a bunch of his friends he was partied up with. They proceeded to team kill me five times in a row, and then the angry man tried to throw a stun grenade at me to slow me down. He then followed me around the map and tried to jump in front of my gun to get me to team kill him and eventually kick myself after the third time. I still proceeded to get the most amount of kills on my team and the least amount of deaths. This went on for the rest of the day. I do not deserve this kind of abuse. It made me feel like I should just quit gaming all together. In the past, I have faced similar verbal abuse in our servers during a tough time in my life. No one should have to face this kind of unwarranted harrassment. We join our servers to relax and have fun. Some people try to take out frustration in their lives on innocent people. I have had enough.
I wish XI nothing but the best.
Your friend,
RANDALL

Thank you. This makes me feel a little better. I am having a hard time getting over the grief I feel right now, but it takes me a while to get over things that I care about.

Thank you. This makes me feel a little better. I am having a hard time getting over the grief I feel right now, but it takes me a while to get over things that I care about.

I do not seek your sympathy, specifically. You can walk away from that comment because it meant nothing to you. However, sometimes these forums are used as an outlet for sympathy. You wouldn't say that to someone if they made a post about a loved one passing away. I am not comparing my situation to that, nor am I using my sister for sympathy. I used it as an example of how I feel. I do love playing CoD4, but not anymore. That is why I am complaining. I am giving up on a game I have played for years that I have worked hard to get better at. I enjoy good competition, win or lose. I do not enjoy toxic people, and as a whole, the server has gotten worse. 99 times out of 100 you hear fuck you instead of nice shot. Have I been emotional the last couple days? Yes. I am in disbelief and I thought it I hung around long enough I could get an apology before I am gone. One last walk around the building. 

Hindsight is 20/20. I pray for presence of mind but don't always have it. This has bothered me all day long. I said that I was leaving because of game mechanics, not the people, but I take back that last part. I wad bullied from 1st grade until the end of high school. I have been taking anti-depressants since I was 17 to stop suicidal thoughts in my head. I think back to the people who have made my life difficult for no reason, and @ANGU5 is one of them. As I mentioned in the 147 mod thread, Angus verbally harrassed me day after day when my Dad was dying of cancer in 2015. I would take my Dad to his treatments and it made me sad to see a strong, proud man reduced to a weakened shell of himself. I would play freezetag to escape when I could to try to have some fun. I don't know why Angus had such a problem with me, but he made my life miserable. To hear that person on CoD WW2 tell me I should kill myself brought back memories of when Angus would incessantly provoke me to respond to his trash talk. I do not want to be associated with him and will not play here as long as he does. It is easier for me to leave. He already said he is not sorry. He may not have known what I was going through at that time, but it should not have mattered. No one should act like that.

I was not planning on making an official post, but I am leaving XI. I announced this on the 147 mod thread, but there are a lot of good people in this clan who I formally wanted to say goodbye to.
I have stated my frustrations lately, but none of that really matters.
As you might have seen, I made some youtube videos this weekend. Two of them were for Call of Duty WW2. The reason I made those two videos was because on Saturday I was having a really good day of gaming after getting the first good night of sleep I've had in weeks. In a post-game lobby, an angry man told me to kill myself because he thought I was cheating. Next map, I was on his team with a bunch of his friends he was partied up with. They proceeded to team kill me five times in a row, and then the angry man tried to throw a stun grenade at me to slow me down. He then followed me around the map and tried to jump in front of my gun to get me to team kill him and eventually kick myself after the third time. I still proceeded to get the most amount of kills on my team and the least amount of deaths. This went on for the rest of the day. I do not deserve this kind of abuse. It made me feel like I should just quit gaming all together. In the past, I have faced similar verbal abuse in our servers during a tough time in my life. No one should have to face this kind of unwarranted harrassment. We join our servers to relax and have fun. Some people try to take out frustration in their lives on innocent people. I have had enough.
I wish XI nothing but the best.
Your friend,
RANDALL

I do not seek your sympathy, specifically. You can walk away from that comment because it meant nothing to you. However, sometimes these forums are used as an outlet for sympathy. You wouldn't say that to someone if they made a post about a loved one passing away. I am not comparing my situation to that, nor am I using my sister for sympathy. I used it as an example of how I feel. I do love playing CoD4, but not anymore. That is why I am complaining. I am giving up on a game I have played for years that I have worked hard to get better at. I enjoy good competition, win or lose. I do not enjoy toxic people, and as a whole, the server has gotten worse. 99 times out of 100 you hear fuck you instead of nice shot. Have I been emotional the last couple days? Yes. I am in disbelief and I thought it I hung around long enough I could get an apology before I am gone. One last walk around the building. 

I appreciate the work Sammy has done to add an anti-Heist capabilty to the server. Although, there is still a compromise that is hard to deal with that is not worth the frustration to me, and it is my choice to just walk away. It still bothers me that a perk like that can exist. How a defenseless person can be taken advantage of by a greedy person. It irks me for a different reason. I have a little sister with special needs whose life has not been easy. 

I was not planning on making an official post, but I am leaving XI. I announced this on the 147 mod thread, but there are a lot of good people in this clan who I formally wanted to say goodbye to.
I have stated my frustrations lately, but none of that really matters.
As you might have seen, I made some youtube videos this weekend. Two of them were for Call of Duty WW2. The reason I made those two videos was because on Saturday I was having a really good day of gaming after getting the first good night of sleep I've had in weeks. In a post-game lobby, an angry man told me to kill myself because he thought I was cheating. Next map, I was on his team with a bunch of his friends he was partied up with. They proceeded to team kill me five times in a row, and then the angry man tried to throw a stun grenade at me to slow me down. He then followed me around the map and tried to jump in front of my gun to get me to team kill him and eventually kick myself after the third time. I still proceeded to get the most amount of kills on my team and the least amount of deaths. This went on for the rest of the day. I do not deserve this kind of abuse. It made me feel like I should just quit gaming all together. In the past, I have faced similar verbal abuse in our servers during a tough time in my life. No one should have to face this kind of unwarranted harrassment. We join our servers to relax and have fun. Some people try to take out frustration in their lives on innocent people. I have had enough.
I wish XI nothing but the best.
Your friend,
RANDALL

I was not planning on making an official post, but I am leaving XI. I announced this on the 147 mod thread, but there are a lot of good people in this clan who I formally wanted to say goodbye to.
I have stated my frustrations lately, but none of that really matters.
As you might have seen, I made some youtube videos this weekend. Two of them were for Call of Duty WW2. The reason I made those two videos was because on Saturday I was having a really good day of gaming after getting the first good night of sleep I've had in weeks. In a post-game lobby, an angry man told me to kill myself because he thought I was cheating. Next map, I was on his team with a bunch of his friends he was partied up with. They proceeded to team kill me five times in a row, and then the angry man tried to throw a stun grenade at me to slow me down. He then followed me around the map and tried to jump in front of my gun to get me to team kill him and eventually kick myself after the third time. I still proceeded to get the most amount of kills on my team and the least amount of deaths. This went on for the rest of the day. I do not deserve this kind of abuse. It made me feel like I should just quit gaming all together. In the past, I have faced similar verbal abuse in our servers during a tough time in my life. No one should have to face this kind of unwarranted harrassment. We join our servers to relax and have fun. Some people try to take out frustration in their lives on innocent people. I have had enough.
I wish XI nothing but the best.
Your friend,
RANDALL

I think Heist is a bad concept. I have a suggestion. In the previous mod, I understand good players had no problem getting killstreaks while lower skill players had a hard time getting any killstreaks at times. Heist now turns the table and promotes camping and less skill. My suggestion comes from Call of Duty WW2. There is a perk called Requisitions where killstreak progress is not reset upon dying, but cost more (requires more kills/score), and can only be earned once per map. So, for our server, I see a place for it. If you remove Heist and replace it with Requisitions, people are not penalized for moving and searching for the enemy only to get their killstreaks stolen, while at the same time, people who struggle to get killstreaks normally don't lose hope and just keep working toward getting the killstreaks they like. Obviously the exception would be a tactical nuke. @Sammy what do you think?