hxtr Posted May 25, 2013 Member ID: 220 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 147 Topic Count: 595 Topics Per Day: 0.10 Content Count: 16950 Content Per Day: 2.96 Reputation: 13538 Achievement Points: 129714 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 120 Joined: 09/04/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: October 26, 2023 Birthday: 04/05/1970 Posted May 25, 2013 I was about to go to church/Sunday school for the first time in years.. like 7 or 8 this AM then I realized it was Saturday. OMG I'm ready to go somewhere! What an idiot! I can go back to bed now but my Damn dreams really mess me up. When I smoked pot I did not dream or remember them now they are vivid as a movie. FUCK! I talked to a nurse for my finger the other day..... and told her about stopping smoking.. drinking plus she wanted me to stop Xanax someone gave me to help sleep. So I did and now Im going nutz. I only need .5 and I wont ever abuse that shit.... not my type of drug. I dont like feeling weird. So making a damn APT. Any suggestions to suppress my dreams. Insomnia from hell. I feel like I have had very little sleep. Want to hear about one of my many dreams tonight..... didn't like what I seen. Dont like other people being hurt and this guy was kicking the shit out of another guy and I could get to him to help. A girl was holding him crying and his what appeared to be his girlfriend was crying trying to get him to stop but he wouldn't. Looked like a movie but felt real then I wake up in a panic. If they don't do something I going to smoke pot again or take the xanax . Pissing me off as this dream is stuck in my had for the rest of the day. He was killing that guy kicking punching him and kicking him after he was already knocked out or other. I dont like violence another reason I dont watch movies anymore as that is all they are about. Any suggestions to suppress them a legal way? Going to go to walmart and walk around. Raining way to hard to take a long walk. FUCK!!!!!!! Boomer and pancakes 2
pancakes Posted May 25, 2013 Member ID: 2395 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 19 Topic Count: 40 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 800 Content Per Day: 0.16 Reputation: 217 Achievement Points: 5471 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 04/13/11 Status: Offline Last Seen: January 10, 2024 Birthday: 07/22/1994 Posted May 25, 2013 Find a hobby to replace them Awards
Juju Posted May 25, 2013 Member ID: 6813 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 1 Topic Count: 1 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 43 Content Per Day: 0.01 Reputation: 50 Achievement Points: 297 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 1 Joined: 04/07/13 Status: Offline Last Seen: August 9, 2013 Birthday: 08/28/1965 Posted May 25, 2013 Pray to have the dreams go away as i think they are premonitions for you.
hxtr Posted May 25, 2013 Member ID: 220 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 147 Topic Count: 595 Topics Per Day: 0.10 Content Count: 16950 Content Per Day: 2.96 Reputation: 13538 Achievement Points: 129714 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 120 Joined: 09/04/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: October 26, 2023 Birthday: 04/05/1970 Author Posted May 25, 2013 Find a hobby to replace them i can only masturbate so much pancakes. lol I waled around and around and around walmart. Exercise always helps but I have so much energy. I need a hobby for sure.... i am picking up reading. Have not done that since 2006 as well. lol oh except this crap on this site. pancakes 1
pancakes Posted May 25, 2013 Member ID: 2395 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 19 Topic Count: 40 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 800 Content Per Day: 0.16 Reputation: 217 Achievement Points: 5471 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 04/13/11 Status: Offline Last Seen: January 10, 2024 Birthday: 07/22/1994 Posted May 25, 2013 Find a hobby to replace them i can only masturbate so much pancakes. lol I waled around and around and around walmart. Exercise always helps but I have so much energy. I need a hobby for sure.... i am picking up reading. Have not done that since 2006 as well. lol oh except this crap on this site. start a XI Rehab bookclub lol hxtr 1 Awards
JohnnyQuest Posted May 25, 2013 Member ID: 1965 Group: Fallen Members Followers: 0 Topic Count: 43 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 1176 Content Per Day: 0.22 Reputation: 1082 Achievement Points: 8599 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 11/12/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: June 15, 2016 Birthday: 02/11/1969 Posted May 25, 2013 Jesus Hxtr...how did you quit....i can't....tried it a month ago...and couldn't sleep......tossed and turned for three days ...so i said fuck it...one habbit isn't that bad ...since i quit smoking the thieving devil tobacco i had to keep at least one habit....i just wish i could get passed the two week thing...then i could quit forever....i have lots of weed in my freezer and have never sold any of it ever....just kept it for myself and buddies that didn't want to go look for it....mind you they treat me really well for giving them free herbs but i find myself wanting to quit the whole scene and grow up...lol [never],,,it doesn't effect my wallet or anything physical....but i feel it is a mental thing...and you just have to train you self to say no ...don't smoke it,,,,i love smoking it as it makes me care free and no worries ....maybe thats why i couldnt' sleep worrying about nonsence....all i know is i would quit if i chose to,,,and it would be a bit tough... but for now i am going to smoke my head off,,,just me...damn addictive personality i got....lol Don';t worry Hxtr....when you were wasted you just didn't think of these things .....now that the fog has left your head everything is back to normal....lol...normal being boring/////i might quit this summer after harvest...he he
MikeB Posted May 25, 2013 Member ID: 59 Group: *** Clan Members Followers: 12 Topic Count: 140 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 2174 Content Per Day: 0.38 Reputation: 2415 Achievement Points: 15578 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 13 Joined: 09/01/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: Thursday at 02:37 PM Device: Windows Posted May 25, 2013 I quit smoking several years ago. And the added energy you get or so called speed high from zero nicotine in your system will go away (or maybe you get used to it) !!! Either way the feeling and insomnia will fade !!! Stick with it !!! Buy a set of drums !!!! Electronic if you cant be loud !! Or an electric guitar (a descent used name brand). Dont go the acoustic route. Harder to finger (that didnt sound right). Awards
hxtr Posted May 25, 2013 Member ID: 220 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 147 Topic Count: 595 Topics Per Day: 0.10 Content Count: 16950 Content Per Day: 2.96 Reputation: 13538 Achievement Points: 129714 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 120 Joined: 09/04/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: October 26, 2023 Birthday: 04/05/1970 Author Posted May 25, 2013 i can do mental health, rehab, idiot training and much more. Great Idea!
hxtr Posted May 25, 2013 Member ID: 220 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 147 Topic Count: 595 Topics Per Day: 0.10 Content Count: 16950 Content Per Day: 2.96 Reputation: 13538 Achievement Points: 129714 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 120 Joined: 09/04/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: October 26, 2023 Birthday: 04/05/1970 Author Posted May 25, 2013 Jesus Hxtr...how did you quit....i can't....tried it a month ago...and couldn't sleep......tossed and turned for three days ...so i said fuck it...one habbit isn't that bad ...since i quit smoking the thieving devil tobacco i had to keep at least one habit....i just wish i could get passed the two week thing...then i could quit forever....i have lots of weed in my freezer and have never sold any of it ever....just kept it for myself and buddies that didn't want to go look for it....mind you they treat me really well for giving them free herbs but i find myself wanting to quit the whole scene and grow up...lol [never],,,it doesn't effect my wallet or anything physical....but i feel it is a mental thing...and you just have to train you self to say no ...don't smoke it,,,,i love smoking it as it makes me care free and no worries ....maybe thats why i couldnt' sleep worrying about nonsence....all i know is i would quit if i chose to,,,and it would be a bit tough... but for now i am going to smoke my head off,,,just me...damn addictive personality i got....lol Don';t worry Hxtr....when you were wasted you just didn't think of these things .....now that the fog has left your head everything is back to normal....lol...normal being boring/////i might quit this summer after harvest...he he When I decide to do something I just do it by finding tricks to help me kick. It really is not hard but the sleep problem is a problem as well. One thing I dont deny is that I want one of whatever it is.. then I can talk to myself and work it out. I dont deny I want one I acknowledge it and move on as it is like a wave.. comes and goes. It will do that for a bit. Only alcohol does that to me now as that was the last I quit... so wish me luck. I have a hard time doing thing in moderation so I have to quite all together. For drinking when I get real thirsty.. i just got something to eat. I dont like to drink on a full stomach. Waist of time. I have one beer in my ref and it will stay their as a tease.. if I can leave it alone then I am good. I was drinking a 1/2 gal of bourbon every 3 days.. then went to beer which I really dont like as much then it was way easier to stop. Again the food helped. Plus support from a friend. Smoking cigs was hardest but i switched to pipe tobacco and got the taste of cigs out my system and cant even stand to have one now. I was down to 3 rolled up pip cigs so was not even addicted to the nicotine anymore according to my doc. I just thought was... like pot. Never addicted just thought I needed it. But I know I dont. you vap so not near as bad. I smoked so much at one time if I pissed in the dirt a pot plant would grow. But now I have no anxiety and that is cool. Hate that feeling. I dont mind seeing family as before I was always wanting to get home to smoke. Now I dont mind sticking around having long conversations without as smoke or leaving. I hate anything that controls me. Now being constant is my goal. And yes the fog has cleared big time. Amazing what I can remember now. Like how to get to someones house without a GPS. hahahhaaha so true. I have quit many vices but this is the first time I quit them all.. unless forced. Now working on the once and a while porn look. I need a visual when I touch myself. lol I have lost like some 30 to 35 lbs during this process. That helps my heath and I am a healthy guy for some reason. But pot smoking is not near as bad a cigs and alcohol and my thought are clear than ever. What is great Im getting my wind back. I dont hurt like I was when doing some work... but it will take a bit to get it even better.
Bogleg Posted May 25, 2013 Member ID: 907 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 96 Topic Count: 126 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 2731 Content Per Day: 0.49 Reputation: 3928 Achievement Points: 26177 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 13 Joined: 12/20/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: March 16 Birthday: 02/10/1969 Device: Windows Posted May 25, 2013 You should get a gym membership. hxtr 1 Awards
Boomer Posted May 25, 2013 Member ID: 2083 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 42 Topic Count: 172 Topics Per Day: 0.03 Content Count: 3554 Content Per Day: 0.68 Reputation: 4992 Achievement Points: 23761 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 6 Joined: 12/31/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: May 14, 2014 Birthday: 10/20/1962 Posted May 25, 2013 I was about to go to church/Sunday school for the first time in years.. like 7 or 8 this AM then I realized it was Saturday. OMG I'm ready to go somewhere! What an idiot! I can go back to bed now but my Damn dreams really mess me up. When I smoked pot I did not dream or remember them now they are vivid as a movie. FUCK! I talked to a nurse for my finger the other day..... and told her about stopping smoking.. drinking plus she wanted me to stop Xanax someone gave me to help sleep. So I did and now Im going nutz. I only need .5 and I wont ever abuse that shit.... not my type of drug. I dont like feeling weird. So making a damn APT. Any suggestions to suppress my dreams. Insomnia from hell. I feel like I have had very little sleep. Want to hear about one of my many dreams tonight..... didn't like what I seen. Dont like other people being hurt and this guy was kicking the shit out of another guy and I could get to him to help. A girl was holding him crying and his what appeared to be his girlfriend was crying trying to get him to stop but he wouldn't. Looked like a movie but felt real then I wake up in a panic. If they don't do something I going to smoke pot again or take the xanax . Pissing me off as this dream is stuck in my had for the rest of the day. He was killing that guy kicking punching him and kicking him after he was already knocked out or other. I dont like violence another reason I dont watch movies anymore as that is all they are about. Any suggestions to suppress them a legal way? Going to go to walmart and walk around. Raining way to hard to take a long walk. FUCK!!!!!!! Not a THING wrong with your excitement! hxtr 1
hxtr Posted May 26, 2013 Member ID: 220 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 147 Topic Count: 595 Topics Per Day: 0.10 Content Count: 16950 Content Per Day: 2.96 Reputation: 13538 Achievement Points: 129714 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 120 Joined: 09/04/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: October 26, 2023 Birthday: 04/05/1970 Author Posted May 26, 2013 You should get a gym membership. that is a great idea.. I love to walk so going to do that more. I love yard work.. so will do that more.. I love to do things that get me tired as I feel good when I do. It is when I dont that gets me. I should sleep good tonight. I worked my ass off. Had a bast helping my neighbor and I CAN STILL WELD. Bad ass.... been over 20 years since the last time. Now I will do more. Love good neighbors... and going to have another best friend with bill my next door neighbor. 20 years older than me but a great guy and he has some skills. He just need the help of a younger guy like myself. I am only 21. hahahahaha
Logan Posted May 26, 2013 Member ID: 582 Group: ++ COD2 Admin Followers: 20 Topic Count: 33 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 361 Content Per Day: 0.06 Reputation: 389 Achievement Points: 3272 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 10/17/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: May 1, 2020 Birthday: 11/22/1956 Posted May 26, 2013 (edited) Don't smoke Hxtr! Buy a bicycle, motorcycle or do something to take your mind off it. It will bite you in the ass later in life. (I know) Yea-yea we all know of some old bugger who smoked and drank his whole life and he is still kicking at 93, but we all know of 3x as many who didn't make retirement. The anxiety will pass and you will feel better. Like my German neighbor use to say to me," Come down-Come down, Breed threw the top of your hed" I still don't know what the hell that means. Edited May 26, 2013 by Logan Awards
Spartacus Posted May 26, 2013 Member ID: 1387 Group: *** Clan Members Followers: 30 Topic Count: 52 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 2540 Content Per Day: 0.46 Reputation: 2486 Achievement Points: 19555 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 3 Joined: 05/02/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: April 13 Birthday: 06/05/1968 Device: Windows Posted May 26, 2013 I was about to go to church/Sunday school for the first time in years.. like 7 or 8 this AM then I realized it was Saturday. OMG I'm ready to go somewhere! What an idiot! I can go back to bed now but my Damn dreams really mess me up. When I smoked pot I did not dream or remember them now they are vivid as a movie. FUCK! I talked to a nurse for my finger the other day..... and told her about stopping smoking.. drinking plus she wanted me to stop Xanax someone gave me to help sleep. So I did and now Im going nutz. I only need .5 and I wont ever abuse that shit.... not my type of drug. I dont like feeling weird. So making a damn APT. Any suggestions to suppress my dreams. Insomnia from hell. I feel like I have had very little sleep. Want to hear about one of my many dreams tonight..... didn't like what I seen. Dont like other people being hurt and this guy was kicking the shit out of another guy and I could get to him to help. A girl was holding him crying and his what appeared to be his girlfriend was crying trying to get him to stop but he wouldn't. Looked like a movie but felt real then I wake up in a panic. If they don't do something I going to smoke pot again or take the xanax . Pissing me off as this dream is stuck in my had for the rest of the day. He was killing that guy kicking punching him and kicking him after he was already knocked out or other. I dont like violence another reason I dont watch movies anymore as that is all they are about. Any suggestions to suppress them a legal way? Going to go to walmart and walk around. Raining way to hard to take a long walk. FUCK!!!!!!! Sounds like your Sub-consience mind woke up after being supressed by all the chemicals you were on.... Dreams like that are messed up.... You should worry when you dream about Snakes, they say it means you are being betrayed lol... Also, It's very very hard to live clean & sober, but you realize so many things that you have been missing when you were under the influence.... Good to see you are trying!!! Awards
Leadfinger Posted May 26, 2013 Member ID: 4888 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 56 Topic Count: 69 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 2020 Content Per Day: 0.45 Reputation: 3795 Achievement Points: 26312 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 3 Joined: 01/12/13 Status: Offline Last Seen: July 29, 2023 Birthday: 08/29/1962 Posted May 26, 2013 Keep focused on what makes you feel good (not masturbating HAR!) and dont look back. Soon you will find yourself feeling good and being productive. As an extra bonus you will be able to pass a drug test to get a job doing something you love instead of working at a job you hate just because they don't piss test. Godspeed to you Hxtr Awards
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