Janey Posted June 4, 2016 Member ID: 434 Group: *** Clan Members Followers: 58 Topic Count: 272 Topics Per Day: 0.05 Content Count: 1289 Content Per Day: 0.24 Reputation: 1448 Achievement Points: 12930 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 5 Joined: 09/17/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: April 21 Device: Windows Share Posted June 4, 2016 Hey Y'all, I'm still battling with this depression, but on top of that I was in the hospital for a few days. They think I have Bradycardia (slow heart beat). For a while it wouldn't get over 40 bpm. I was passing out, once on my lawn where I scraped my knee, a few times in my house. Had a bruise on my forehead after passing out at the pc and bonking my head on the desk...lol. Personally, I think it was a drug interaction. My psychiatrist was on maternity leave and the guy taking her place changed my meds, but with heart problems running in my family it's best to see the cardiologist. Both my parents, 2 of my brothers and my sister all died due to heart problems. so... I'm gonna have it checked. Honestly, I'm probably healthy but still terrified of going. Still working at Target. I missed some time, being in the hospital and all, and they said they were cutting my hours as I'm "unreliable". I'm also told nearly every shift "no panic attacks, no crying", as if I have control over the panic. I want another job but the market here is hard. I've lost another 20ish pounds and they don't know why. I eat anything I want but still lose weight. It's so hard to go through all this alone, with no love in my life. But I wouldn't want to subject anyone to my mess of a life. I do miss kissing and someone to hold me and feel safe in his arms, but that's something that probably won't happen. I'll try to make it to Fest this year. Money is always an issue for me, so when it gets closer, if I have enough saved, I'll go. Maybe hitch a ride with someone else and stuff. anyways, this is why I haven't been around much. I didn't feel like depressing everyone with my problems. I'm starting to play here and there, so say hi if you see me. Also, if you want my cell to text/call, msg me. Katharine aka Janey hxtr and BlackRose 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
Damage_inc- Posted June 4, 2016 Member ID: 2048 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 0 Topic Count: 294 Topics Per Day: 0.06 Content Count: 6689 Content Per Day: 1.37 Reputation: 4709 Achievement Points: 48999 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 5 Joined: 12/15/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: November 29, 2023 Birthday: 05/30/1967 Device: Windows Share Posted June 4, 2016 life is so stressful these days-i understand/stay strong girl you have friends here Janey and hxtr 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
hxtr Posted June 4, 2016 Member ID: 220 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 147 Topic Count: 595 Topics Per Day: 0.11 Content Count: 16950 Content Per Day: 3.17 Reputation: 13538 Achievement Points: 129713 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 120 Joined: 09/04/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: October 26, 2023 Birthday: 04/05/1970 Device: Windows Share Posted June 4, 2016 Hey just think... when you die you get to do this all over again. So make the best of it while you can. Life is a pain in the ass. I can stand the thought I will have to try and figure it out again. Oh.. such is life. Janey and L!ckALotAPus 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AyeAyeRon Posted June 4, 2016 Member ID: 1371 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 18 Topic Count: 348 Topics Per Day: 0.07 Content Count: 1906 Content Per Day: 0.37 Reputation: 585 Achievement Points: 14042 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 1 Joined: 04/26/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: December 2, 2018 Birthday: 03/01/1990 Share Posted June 4, 2016 Hang in there janey we love 8ve you!!!! Janey 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
THOR435 Posted June 4, 2016 Member ID: 2050 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 14 Topic Count: 14 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 360 Content Per Day: 0.07 Reputation: 193 Achievement Points: 2359 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 12/16/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: September 3, 2016 Birthday: 03/10/1952 Share Posted June 4, 2016 You take care of yourself Janey Girl!! Janey 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PimpedOutPete Posted June 5, 2016 Member ID: 174 Group: +++ COD2 Head Admin Followers: 129 Topic Count: 387 Topics Per Day: 0.07 Content Count: 14881 Content Per Day: 2.78 Reputation: 7823 Achievement Points: 91059 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 52 Joined: 09/02/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: 3 hours ago Birthday: 04/23/1970 Device: iPhone Share Posted June 5, 2016 Take care of yourself. Janey 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
Janey Posted June 6, 2016 Member ID: 434 Group: *** Clan Members Followers: 58 Topic Count: 272 Topics Per Day: 0.05 Content Count: 1289 Content Per Day: 0.24 Reputation: 1448 Achievement Points: 12930 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 5 Joined: 09/17/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: April 21 Device: Windows Author Share Posted June 6, 2016 Thanks for the support. Really do appreciate it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
Karnthis Posted June 6, 2016 Member ID: 24161 Group: ++ Minecraft Admin Followers: 4 Topic Count: 49 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 321 Content Per Day: 0.11 Reputation: 107 Achievement Points: 2301 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 02/29/16 Status: Offline Last Seen: October 15, 2020 Birthday: 10/24/1989 Share Posted June 6, 2016 that is really rough, hope things look up for you soon. hospital stays combined with non-understanding employers suck. been there, done that. if you need some rando to vent to, give me a shout. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
BlackRose Posted June 7, 2016 Member ID: 2208 Group: *** Clan Members Followers: 110 Topic Count: 305 Topics Per Day: 0.06 Content Count: 3619 Content Per Day: 0.75 Reputation: 3945 Achievement Points: 37738 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 54 Joined: 02/09/11 Status: Offline Last Seen: 12 hours ago Birthday: 06/09/1963 Device: Windows Share Posted June 7, 2016 hope things get better soon,,depression is a real kick in the ass sometimes,,do get help dont let it control you,,get your meds fixed and try to think possitive thoughts,,i know thats hard sometimes,,there are groups on FB to talk to ppl,,that may help, hugs! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
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