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PainKiller last won the day on September 12

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About PainKiller

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  • Birthday 08/01/1994

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    Gaming, Drawing, Animation

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    PainKiller>XI<, NoddyJR

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  1. PainKiller

    Will be great to see everyone there can't believe how much XI in general has grown even since those early roots. I'm glad to be part of XI as well as a Moderator for CoD2, it means a lot to me to be able to help @loaderXI keep the game alive
  2. PainKiller

    Couldn't GG of just posted this herself? 🤔
  3. PainKiller

    If anyone has any issues with the game such as not being able to connect or other game related issues, feel free to contact @loaderXI or myself and we'll get you straight. I am sure some of you will run into download failures while getting the .iwds but that will happen, all you need to do is reconnect to the server and you're all set. It might take a few attempts but you'll be fine
  4. PainKiller

    I'll be there for sure mate, I will Would be great to see some old blood on the butt of my rifle
  5. PainKiller

    Shooting logan is one of my favourite pastimes. But bashing him is much more satisfying. We have two servers that are on the public list: DM: TDM: The DM server is busiest in the weekdays in the evenings and TDM is busier in the morning on the weekends. Other than those times, they are relatively empty. As loader said, we have an event next weekend on the side server mate
  6. PainKiller

    Welcome! Grats on the tags mate
  7. PainKiller

    I am sorry, I didn't think of it that way
  8. PainKiller

    You think we can also get this moved to the clan members section? I don't think this topic is overly acceptable on the public page - its a very sensitive topic
  9. PainKiller

    It's never easy to deal with something like this. I agree with Rob here mate. I do. There are different kinds of people and your approach must always be different. The first step is being understanding. Sometimes the best thing you can ever do is listen. That helps so much. Then of course, you remind them to look at what IS in their life. What they HAVE got. They're still breathing, right? That's gotta count for something. They have you, family, people who do love them. There's always an underlying reason for someone to feel like they want to end it all and I found that removing yourself from root problem that is causing them to have gotten to this is a massive help. I will open up here. I was abused for almost all my life. It was horrible. I was verbally, mentally and emotionally abused in my own home. It only stopped a couple of years ago when I moved out. I had my confidence and my self-esteem and self worth completely and utterly ripped out of me. I was extremely depressed and dealing with severe anxiety disorder. I was scared to be in my own home. Or anywhere. I wanted to end it. It got to the point where I had written down my final goodbyes to people and planned everything. I was seriously debating doing it. I was on my chair ready to get up, go to the bridge near mine and jump. But I stopped myself, I couldn't do it. I had something to give me strength. My mom. I was also too scared! But what I had done was see a therapist. It was tough at first finding the right help but I soon found someone to help me. I was with them for two years and tell you what mate, my life has turned around. I moved out of my parents, I went to University and I fell in love. I found things to hold on to, things to keep me going. At my lowest I saw no hope, none at all. But after just having someone to listen to me, to hear me out, I felt so much better. We worked slowly but over time I had gotten a lot better. Found the root cause of my problems and cut that out. Never been better. Of course, I can get really low at some points and I am still on medication but I am so much better that I was a few years ago. To you friend, I don't mind you sharing what I have told you because being suicidal myself, I know what it is like. I have condensed my events down here so some parts are missing but the gist of it is there. I owe everything to my mom, my girlfriend, my therapist and the idiots on CoD2 and 4 who were there to make me laugh and support me and help me in my tough times. It's not the number of people you have around you but the quality of the people.
  10. PainKiller

    Server wise, I think it's time to start closing the servers we don't use anymore. The flash in the pan ones. We say all this awesome ideas, they get put into action, people play them for a week and then that's it. We're used to and are comfortable with the modes we are so familiar with. So for CoD4 I am thinking the BO2 FT, Ace Mod SLOW and both zombie ones should go. I don't play on the WaW servers enough to warrant a decent input but maybe the Modern Weapons, Insane Zombies and low gravity ace mod server. BF4 one can go too. You need to argue that is one or two players every now and then really a viable reason to keep the server up and running when the others are the only ones getting played? You need to focus on where your players are. CoD4 has always been FT and Ace Mod, CoD2 has always been DM, TDM and our CTF server (which is pretty much Loader and I's playground when working on things )
  11. PainKiller

    Happy belated birthday! Hope you had a good time!
  12. Petition for hxtr to only be let out of his box fort with his tin foil hat on only a few hours a day? I mean this as a jest of course
  13. It's been hitting CoD2 as well, so it has to be down to the host
  14. PainKiller

    Good to see a moderator earn his Admin tags! Well done and good luck!