I am sitting here in tears just thinking about old friends made long long ago. When I was asked to become the Head COD2 Admin when COD4 took off and many admins moved over to the new game and Rugger knew I wouldn't leave the game I loved I told him that I would do it in spite of my insecurities and hot head. After thinking about it overnight I told @Ruggerxi the only way this would work was if I could add @Blackbart, and @loaderXI as my next in command and @TedsofBeverlyHills, @window @Artimus Prime @PimpedOutPete as Game Admins. Bart and Loader were added to offset my hotheadedness since they were much calmer people and Ted, Window, and Artimus were well respected players who played well but always put the Clan and Gaming fun first. I saw the talent in them all as well as the fun they all brought to every game. I was a very lucky man to make friends with them long before we became the best Admin team and most solid one >XI< ever had. These men were more to me then just gaming friends they became like brothers to me. We are coming up on 20 years of playing COD2 together and keeping it alive as a team of wonderful human beings. I have spent many hours on the phone with Ted, Bart and Loader over the years and they made me a better person and the COD2 servers the best option in the game. I can not express my Gratitude to them all and the other Admins we added later but the thought of first Losing Bart and now the possibility losing Ted "The funniest player ever" in spite of his high ping and connection issues is a hard blow to handle. We are all getting older and many of you know I have had 2 massive heart attacks in the past 18 months so I want to take this time to pray for Ted and hope he kicks out of this or if not is in fact painlessly able to join Johnny Dos, Killa, Macdaddy, Too Cute Sue, Bud , Starfire, Sherm, Boiler don and Black Bart is got a great server set up in some beautiful place in Heaven waiting for the rest of us when it is out time to go be with God. If I haven't told you all just how much I love and respect your all and consider each of you a huge part of my Family and and so many my friends for coming up on 20 years. Please if you read this and don't know these men take the time to say hello and thank you for the work they have put in for over 15 years to keep the first >XI< servers alive so we can remember where we started they are great guys dedicated to the >XI< Family. Also take this situation to remember that life is precious and can be gone in a second so tell those you like and love how you feel. It takes such little time and can mean so much to the person hearing your kind words. Expressing LOVE to another person can do wonders for people dealing with struggles big or small and takes such little effort on our part. I might not be here today without the love that @Ruggerxi and the rest of my team and friends have shown a man who suffers from Anxiety and depression and I am not afraid to admit that they lifted me up many times and keep me from quitting especially when I was under attack by people who quit here like HXTR and Laz felt it was cool to trash me every chance they got. They always said calm down they will go away and you staying here doing what you do will show them who was the weak sack. I challenge you all to tell 10 people you play with and might not be close to you how much you enjoy them and how important they are in our FAMILY. LOVE has amazing healing powers. Thanks for reading this and accepting my challenge, Ron aka Phuckitman/COD Admin