unionjackk Posted September 4, 2012 Member ID: 2383 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 8 Topic Count: 42 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 210 Content Per Day: 0.04 Reputation: 85 Achievement Points: 1562 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 04/10/11 Status: Offline Last Seen: October 25, 2012 Birthday: 01/25/1970 Share Posted September 4, 2012 i just got home after being in hospital yet again. i have read all your well wishes and am very gratefull that I did. i cant use a laptop in hospital but miranda aka manthis has an ipad so ive been keeping up with forums. anyways I collapsed late one night i cant remember when woke up 3 days later in the hospital. i dont remember much i was sorta in and out of it. I was kinda bummed cause i had the same nurse lo I wlanted the cute 1. i had a high fever and the docs were worried it was phnemonia but my fever went down . my wifes a nurse which helps i knew i married her for some reason. i have yet to start treatment as the doctors want me to gain more weight back i've lost 22 pounds in the last month. I will be home for a couple of days then its back to the hospital for 3 to 4 weeks as they try n get me to gain weight. eating has become very difficult for me but what hasnt. I am in constant pain and just want it to all end . i just want the pain to go away so i can rest im so fuckin tired all the time. even death would be a relief right now. sorry for the bluntness but its how im feeling at this particular moment . just want it all to go away so i wouldnt have to see mysekf wither. jack hxtr 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Super Max Posted September 4, 2012 Member ID: 558 Group: *** Clan Members Followers: 0 Topic Count: 576 Topics Per Day: 0.11 Content Count: 3785 Content Per Day: 0.71 Reputation: 1477 Achievement Points: 29048 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 7 Joined: 10/14/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: April 24 Birthday: 06/06/1964 Device: Windows Share Posted September 4, 2012 Jack if you're in pain then I can understand what you're going through. I too have one years ago had the desire to be dead. Luckily for me, there was light at the end of the tunnel. I hope for you that they give you good pain medication and that you too may be light at the end. strength Jack Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
Gatorgirl Posted September 4, 2012 Member ID: 2986 Group: ++++ Senior Admin Followers: 206 Topic Count: 384 Topics Per Day: 0.08 Content Count: 6454 Content Per Day: 1.41 Reputation: 7140 Achievement Points: 50699 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 21 Joined: 11/13/11 Status: Offline Last Seen: Monday at 02:21 PM Birthday: 12/19/1967 Device: iPhone Share Posted September 4, 2012 Hang in there!! We're all praying for you! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
hxtr Posted September 4, 2012 Member ID: 220 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 147 Topic Count: 595 Topics Per Day: 0.11 Content Count: 16950 Content Per Day: 3.16 Reputation: 13538 Achievement Points: 129713 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 120 Joined: 09/04/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: October 26, 2023 Birthday: 04/05/1970 Device: Windows Share Posted September 4, 2012 Nothing wrong with being honest Union. Cant imagine the pain you are in right now nor can others unless they have been there. I understand you would love to unitize yourself.... and not out of hate for yourself but to stop the suffering. I think if people really think about that... they would understand. But you cant give up yet... you got to keep fighting. I will be thinking about you brother and I hope relief soon is bestowed upon you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hunter1948 Posted September 4, 2012 Member ID: 1850 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 98 Topic Count: 328 Topics Per Day: 0.07 Content Count: 8620 Content Per Day: 1.73 Reputation: 4222 Achievement Points: 55994 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 5 Joined: 09/29/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: November 29, 2023 Birthday: 06/19/1948 Device: Windows Share Posted September 4, 2012 Prayers go out to you may you feel better soon. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
Shamu Posted September 4, 2012 Member ID: 715 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 8 Topic Count: 418 Topics Per Day: 0.08 Content Count: 2178 Content Per Day: 0.41 Reputation: 1183 Achievement Points: 16606 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 1 Joined: 11/09/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: October 2, 2023 Birthday: 11/04/1943 Device: Windows Share Posted September 4, 2012 I wish you all the best during a most difficult time. Also I understand and respect your personal preferences, rights that should belong to each individual and treated with respect. unionjackk 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Call of Dirty Posted September 4, 2012 Member ID: 1355 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 14 Topic Count: 22 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 180 Content Per Day: 0.04 Reputation: 120 Achievement Points: 1433 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 04/20/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: July 27, 2018 Birthday: 01/21/1980 Share Posted September 4, 2012 Never give up bro i win the fight for the f... cancer u also can do it i send u a lil bit power from me i have much back so u need it and dont stop laughing whatever how much pain u got p.s. i hope u understand it my engl is very bad unionjackk 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
little_old_man Posted September 4, 2012 Member ID: 1194 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 40 Topic Count: 436 Topics Per Day: 0.08 Content Count: 6692 Content Per Day: 1.29 Reputation: 11691 Achievement Points: 53094 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 76 Joined: 02/27/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: April 16, 2023 Birthday: 04/15/1960 Share Posted September 4, 2012 Keep fighting Jack. I know that letting go sometimes seems better but you have a lot to live for. Be strong and we will be sending many positive thoughts your way. unionjackk 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
unionjackk Posted September 4, 2012 Member ID: 2383 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 8 Topic Count: 42 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 210 Content Per Day: 0.04 Reputation: 85 Achievement Points: 1562 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 04/10/11 Status: Offline Last Seen: October 25, 2012 Birthday: 01/25/1970 Author Share Posted September 4, 2012 Never give up bro i win the fight for the f... cancer u also can do it i send u a lil bit power from me i have much back so u need it and dont stop laughing whatever how much pain u got p.s. i hope u understand it my engl is very bad no worries dirty I understan what your saying cheers Call of Dirty 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
unionjackk Posted September 4, 2012 Member ID: 2383 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 8 Topic Count: 42 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 210 Content Per Day: 0.04 Reputation: 85 Achievement Points: 1562 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 04/10/11 Status: Offline Last Seen: October 25, 2012 Birthday: 01/25/1970 Author Share Posted September 4, 2012 Nothing wrong with being honest Union. Cant imagine the pain you are in right now nor can others unless they have been there. I understand you would love to unitize yourself.... and not out of hate for yourself but to stop the suffering. I think if people really think about that... they would understand. But you cant give up yet... you got to keep fighting. I will be thinking about you brother and I hope relief soon is bestowed upon you. I am trying to remain focused and positive it seems to get hardder to do funny when u come to that point where u hit the wall u figgure its eassier to bang your head against it rather then climb over it. the next 4 weeks r gonna be the toughest yet for me. its not just gainning weight back but the treatments ill loose my sense of taste and theres the fatigue im tired now doc says ill fel ten times more tired after treatmets .lol im not looking forward to it cheers Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
loaderXI Posted September 4, 2012 Member ID: 252 Group: +++ COD2 Head Admin Followers: 71 Topic Count: 392 Topics Per Day: 0.07 Content Count: 6418 Content Per Day: 1.20 Reputation: 6495 Achievement Points: 54347 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 30 Joined: 09/05/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: 13 hours ago Birthday: 03/22/1965 Device: Windows Share Posted September 4, 2012 FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT Jack you are a >Idiot< and we are your >Idiot family<....That nurse wife needs you as much as you may need her and as far as here we all are in it to win it with you bro....Put your mean face on you for sure can beat this...We all are sending out our best stuff plenty of prayers for strength and a full and speedy recovery.....May God grant you all you need Jack....Jack as I have said my mother inlaw stage four all through her body and brain is now fully recovering and cancer free and I had a wonderful chat with her for over a hour on the phone......To God be the glory ! Praying for ya man loADER>XI< God bless you ! hxtr and baldie 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
dadda2 Posted September 4, 2012 Member ID: 1566 Group: Fallen Members Followers: 0 Topic Count: 1152 Topics Per Day: 0.23 Content Count: 7674 Content Per Day: 1.52 Reputation: 4167 Achievement Points: 68081 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 8 Joined: 07/11/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: February 5, 2020 Share Posted September 4, 2012 fuck jack keep fighting u will get through this i dont know what your going through but dont let it get the better of u. your stronger than that so fight on and win rooting for you geoff Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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