noob Posted May 11, 2012 Member ID: 1144 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 18 Topic Count: 39 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 252 Content Per Day: 0.05 Reputation: 101 Achievement Points: 1932 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 02/16/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: January 17, 2022 Birthday: 08/30/1993 Author Share Posted May 11, 2012 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j3R31qKNbxU&feature=relmfu I'm making videos with messages like in the one above, if your going to watch it you have to watch it all the way through otherwise it won't make sense and others based on experience so people don't feel alone Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
Mercy Posted May 11, 2012 Member ID: 3081 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 14 Topic Count: 7 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 298 Content Per Day: 0.07 Reputation: 103 Achievement Points: 2431 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 12/18/11 Status: Offline Last Seen: November 30, 2013 Birthday: 03/26/1982 Share Posted May 11, 2012 No problem The site was made in 2006, a little to late for my high school years, but reading some of the blogs it made me somewhat understand what was going through my friends head when he shot himself back when we were in high school. PimpedOutPete and noob 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
noob Posted May 11, 2012 Member ID: 1144 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 18 Topic Count: 39 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 252 Content Per Day: 0.05 Reputation: 101 Achievement Points: 1932 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 02/16/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: January 17, 2022 Birthday: 08/30/1993 Author Share Posted May 11, 2012 (edited) I think the high school I went to had a day of scilence event hosted by TWLOHA Edited May 11, 2012 by ruso44thenoob Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
billyblade Posted May 11, 2012 Member ID: 34 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 47 Topic Count: 182 Topics Per Day: 0.03 Content Count: 2097 Content Per Day: 0.39 Reputation: 1003 Achievement Points: 14880 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 1 Joined: 09/01/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: April 12, 2018 Birthday: 04/29/1966 Share Posted May 11, 2012 Ruso...i applaud you for even attempting to offer some help to anyone with this topic in mind. Most folks just kinda shrug and say" man, that's sad" and move on, but you sound like you have strong conviction and motivation to help those that really need it. Good luck to you and i hope you are able to make a difference for folks that really need it. The Flush, noob, IceMan NZ and 3 others 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
Xp3rT Posted May 11, 2012 Member ID: 379 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 14 Topic Count: 58 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 346 Content Per Day: 0.06 Reputation: 187 Achievement Points: 2721 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 09/13/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: January 17, 2019 Birthday: 12/05/1990 Share Posted May 11, 2012 ive had some hard times, but i always remind myself of the good things in life, like eating steak or my passion for driving cars and also my dog who is great. When something bad is happening you have to remember that it will not last for ever. Also id never want to die cuz once your dead your dead. you dont come back. i hope this helps PimpedOutPete 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
noob Posted May 11, 2012 Member ID: 1144 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 18 Topic Count: 39 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 252 Content Per Day: 0.05 Reputation: 101 Achievement Points: 1932 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 02/16/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: January 17, 2022 Birthday: 08/30/1993 Author Share Posted May 11, 2012 (edited) thanks billyblade I got over 200 views within the last week ^^, and people seem to really like 2 of the videos I made, I've been getting better at making them, Xp3rT I go eat food and I'm happy lol, or I listen to songs by werid al, or play kamikaze cod4 where I run around with a nade in my hand and hope I kill a lot of people XD, etc, etc Edited May 11, 2012 by ruso44thenoob Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
The Flush Posted May 11, 2012 Member ID: 1106 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 33 Topic Count: 125 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 832 Content Per Day: 0.16 Reputation: 538 Achievement Points: 6778 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 02/08/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: August 15, 2015 Birthday: 06/24/1975 Share Posted May 11, 2012 Like Billy said, props to you ruso...I sincerely wish you nothing but the best. We've all had some hard times that we've been through but the way I have always tried to view events in my life is with perspective...we will never be given something we can't handle. I'm 36 years old and I have been through some times that I honestly can't believe I made it through. My daughter being on her deathbed when she was born 13 weeks early and weighing only 2 pounds, a divorce after I found out my wife was having an affair with one of my good friends and starting a company from nothing basically living below poverty for quite some time to end up making it successful and coming out on top. Life will always hand you challenges and knock you down...what makes you who you are is when you can get back up. You are young and have your whole life, a long one, ahead of you. You will find true love and that woman will truly love you for who you are, not what they want you to be or to try and change you. You will be able to be yourself and she herself with you. Maybe some day you will have children who will become your pride and joy and you will live vicariously through them as you'll be old and washed up like me. Your family and friends love you and with their support, you made it through this...always remember that. Never miss a chance to tell them how much they mean to you and remember how much you mean to them. Congrats on beating this and good luck to you in the future bud. Flushy PingLo, ANGU5 and Bogleg 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
noob Posted May 11, 2012 Member ID: 1144 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 18 Topic Count: 39 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 252 Content Per Day: 0.05 Reputation: 101 Achievement Points: 1932 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 02/16/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: January 17, 2022 Birthday: 08/30/1993 Author Share Posted May 11, 2012 thanks flush, and damn flush nice job making your dreams come true The Flush 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
BigPapaDean Posted May 11, 2012 Member ID: 1128 Group: *** Clan Members Followers: 78 Topic Count: 1197 Topics Per Day: 0.23 Content Count: 6521 Content Per Day: 1.26 Reputation: 4407 Achievement Points: 63389 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 5 Joined: 02/13/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: Yesterday at 06:23 AM Birthday: 10/21/1954 Device: Windows Share Posted May 11, 2012 Ruso I really do understand the feeling of being separated from society even in a large crowd. I have felt that for years and had no idea that I was heading down a dangerous road. For years I just kept all my feelings hidden and out of site! I am 57 years old now and about 3 yrs ago it all came to a head. My favorite lil dog died prematurely and the wife left me directly after that and decided she was gay! We weren't happy and this finally gave us the strength to do what had to be done. I had major issues while working and my boss was very understanding and wanted me to keep working but I hurt way to bad to do that. I devised a plan to end it for me but when the ex tied to kill herself I saw what the effect was on our kids who are all adults, so I couldn't do that to them. I decided to go to school after I quit work but was bad enough that I couldn't handle the stress from that. I had to go the hardest road I have ever walked before and now 2 years after the divorce I am happier than I have been in years and I have been ale to reach many through my experiences. One thing I have noticed is I am more open and honest about myself and who I am than ever in my life. If you ask a question make sure you are ready for the answer because you will hear my honest answer. Council be be very careful. You very well know the dangers of saying the wrong things. God bless you for helping. Mercy, The Flush and noob 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
Shamu Posted May 11, 2012 Member ID: 715 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 8 Topic Count: 418 Topics Per Day: 0.08 Content Count: 2178 Content Per Day: 0.41 Reputation: 1183 Achievement Points: 16606 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 1 Joined: 11/09/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: October 2, 2023 Birthday: 11/04/1943 Device: Windows Share Posted May 11, 2012 Tune in for Drama Central. NumNutz and Damage_inc- 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
noob Posted May 11, 2012 Member ID: 1144 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 18 Topic Count: 39 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 252 Content Per Day: 0.05 Reputation: 101 Achievement Points: 1932 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 02/16/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: January 17, 2022 Birthday: 08/30/1993 Author Share Posted May 11, 2012 (edited) shamu are you being serious, or joking I'm confused by what you mean lol Edited May 11, 2012 by ruso44thenoob Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
noob Posted May 11, 2012 Member ID: 1144 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 18 Topic Count: 39 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 252 Content Per Day: 0.05 Reputation: 101 Achievement Points: 1932 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 02/16/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: January 17, 2022 Birthday: 08/30/1993 Author Share Posted May 11, 2012 Ruso I really do understand the feeling of being separated from society even in a large crowd. I have felt that for years and had no idea that I was heading down a dangerous road. For years I just kept all my feelings hidden and out of site! I am 57 years old now and about 3 yrs ago it all came to a head. My favorite lil dog died prematurely and the wife left me directly after that and decided she was gay! We weren't happy and this finally gave us the strength to do what had to be done. I had major issues while working and my boss was very understanding and wanted me to keep working but I hurt way to bad to do that. I devised a plan to end it for me but when the ex tied to kill herself I saw what the effect was on our kids who are all adults, so I couldn't do that to them. I decided to go to school after I quit work but was bad enough that I couldn't handle the stress from that. I had to go the hardest road I have ever walked before and now 2 years after the divorce I am happier than I have been in years and I have been ale to reach many through my experiences. One thing I have noticed is I am more open and honest about myself and who I am than ever in my life. If you ask a question make sure you are ready for the answer because you will hear my honest answer. Council be be very careful. You very well know the dangers of saying the wrong things. God bless you for helping. honesty is a very good trait, it takes courage to say you honest opinion , I'm glad that your happy with the divorce, the week my ex was gone and in the hospitaI had so much free time I wasn't even sure how to use my time lol, and I felt very happy, BigPapaDean 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
Shamu Posted May 11, 2012 Member ID: 715 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 8 Topic Count: 418 Topics Per Day: 0.08 Content Count: 2178 Content Per Day: 0.41 Reputation: 1183 Achievement Points: 16606 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 1 Joined: 11/09/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: October 2, 2023 Birthday: 11/04/1943 Device: Windows Share Posted May 11, 2012 I am serious, life is not about drama like a stage play. People need to get about their business and confront issues without the drama. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
deerejon Posted May 11, 2012 Member ID: 842 Group: *** Clan Members Followers: 62 Topic Count: 278 Topics Per Day: 0.05 Content Count: 3712 Content Per Day: 0.71 Reputation: 3150 Achievement Points: 28451 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 4 Joined: 12/06/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: 21 hours ago Birthday: 05/04/1965 Device: Windows Share Posted May 11, 2012 I used to think like that to Shamu....but I have come to realize that mental illness is not something that can be understood by those of us not suffering.... My dad fell into depression after divorce from my mother...who turned out to be cruel and evil... He wasnt himself...I was like whats going on man...snap out of it...its all goig to be fine....whats bothering you...snap out of it....over and over....I couldnt understand what he was going through...he taught me growing up that we as men dont get weak, dont have moments, are invincible....so I couldnt see it... Until that day in 2008 that he didnt show up at work.... I went to get him...and it was to late.... I didnt respond to this post at all as I didnt understand where it was going and whatit was even all about, but I do know that mental illness is REAL....I just wish I knew it sooner.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
noob Posted May 11, 2012 Member ID: 1144 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 18 Topic Count: 39 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 252 Content Per Day: 0.05 Reputation: 101 Achievement Points: 1932 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 02/16/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: January 17, 2022 Birthday: 08/30/1993 Author Share Posted May 11, 2012 (edited) shamu depression can be cause my imbalance of chemicals in brain, and abuse, especially sexual abuse and more Edited May 11, 2012 by ruso44thenoob Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
Cavey Posted May 11, 2012 Member ID: 92 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 42 Topic Count: 97 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 2241 Content Per Day: 0.42 Reputation: 606 Achievement Points: 13358 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 1 Joined: 09/02/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: May 11, 2020 Birthday: 06/09/1977 Share Posted May 11, 2012 Forgive me if I'm speaking out of turn here. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. However is a gaming community website really the place to be discussing this? Damage_inc-, Shamu, DREAD69 and 2 others 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shamu Posted May 11, 2012 Member ID: 715 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 8 Topic Count: 418 Topics Per Day: 0.08 Content Count: 2178 Content Per Day: 0.41 Reputation: 1183 Achievement Points: 16606 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 1 Joined: 11/09/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: October 2, 2023 Birthday: 11/04/1943 Device: Windows Share Posted May 11, 2012 Forgive me if I'm speaking out of turn here. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. However is a gaming community website really the place to be discussing this? Sort of my point. There are professional ways to handle emotional issues, a website such as this to me seems out of place and more of a reachout for attention rather than serious help. Hence my drama opinion. Call me skeptical if you wish but even if I am right help is needed either way. I just call into question the reason. Family, friends, doctors and social services are the best resources available, not here. You run into people like me who would just say shut up and man up. Damage_inc- and NumNutz 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LandShark Posted May 11, 2012 Member ID: 698 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 26 Topic Count: 43 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 1145 Content Per Day: 0.22 Reputation: 782 Achievement Points: 7232 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 11/06/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: June 2, 2022 Share Posted May 11, 2012 Glad you are doing better. Never forget that tomorrow would not be the same without you. Life has cold moments, but they pass. Never use a permanent solution for a temorary problem. I have been down my share of rough roads, as most of us have, and found that each dawn still brought a new day filled with possibilities. God is a grand Creator, and you his finest work. Get out there and tell your story, and encourage others, there are many who are lonely and desperately need to know that someone cares. Be Pono! Landshark Mercy and noob 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
Damage_inc- Posted May 12, 2012 Member ID: 2048 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 0 Topic Count: 294 Topics Per Day: 0.06 Content Count: 6689 Content Per Day: 1.37 Reputation: 4709 Achievement Points: 48999 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 5 Joined: 12/15/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: November 29, 2023 Birthday: 05/30/1967 Device: Windows Share Posted May 12, 2012 just as i said. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
hxtr Posted May 12, 2012 Member ID: 220 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 147 Topic Count: 595 Topics Per Day: 0.11 Content Count: 16950 Content Per Day: 3.17 Reputation: 13538 Achievement Points: 129713 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 120 Joined: 09/04/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: October 26, 2023 Birthday: 04/05/1970 Device: Windows Share Posted May 12, 2012 Forgive me if I'm speaking out of turn here. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. However is a gaming community website really the place to be discussing this? is it hurting or helping. We talk about lots of things. Personal and other. No disrespect but if this help ruso.... who btw is a great guy. Many of us have information and if this helps......... that is what XI is about. Just my opinion. Ruso... you are a great guy. Glad I know you. BigPapaDean, Hell_onHeelz and The Flush 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BigPapaDean Posted May 12, 2012 Member ID: 1128 Group: *** Clan Members Followers: 78 Topic Count: 1197 Topics Per Day: 0.23 Content Count: 6521 Content Per Day: 1.26 Reputation: 4407 Achievement Points: 63389 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 5 Joined: 02/13/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: Yesterday at 06:23 AM Birthday: 10/21/1954 Device: Windows Share Posted May 12, 2012 (edited) I use to think people used it to get out of their responsibilities just as you seem too, but when it hit me MY EYES were opened so wide I could look into anybody elses mind if they spoke to me. I knew how they felt without them telling me! I can't do that anymore unless I feel that same mind freezing pain that hurts worse than any physical pain you can imagine. I never ever want to go back to that! Shamu IT IS REALLLLL!!!!! Edited May 12, 2012 by Bigmeandean Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
noob Posted May 12, 2012 Member ID: 1144 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 18 Topic Count: 39 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 252 Content Per Day: 0.05 Reputation: 101 Achievement Points: 1932 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 02/16/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: January 17, 2022 Birthday: 08/30/1993 Author Share Posted May 12, 2012 (edited) shamu feel free to tell me to manup and shutup, if you had not read before I typed I had gotten professional help already a year ago for months, and that I wrote the 1st post from memories of my feelings and thoughts at the time, Edited May 12, 2012 by ruso44thenoob Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
Shamu Posted May 12, 2012 Member ID: 715 Group: **- Inactive Registered Users Followers: 8 Topic Count: 418 Topics Per Day: 0.08 Content Count: 2178 Content Per Day: 0.41 Reputation: 1183 Achievement Points: 16606 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 1 Joined: 11/09/09 Status: Offline Last Seen: October 2, 2023 Birthday: 11/04/1943 Device: Windows Share Posted May 12, 2012 Nuf said. NumNutz 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RogueKill Posted May 12, 2012 Member ID: 1588 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 7 Topic Count: 84 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 904 Content Per Day: 0.18 Reputation: 139 Achievement Points: 5532 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 3 Joined: 07/19/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: January 1, 2023 Birthday: 08/25/1966 Share Posted May 12, 2012 (edited) Ruso bro, to try and help suicidal people when you are depressed, or on the edge , is like an alcoholic working at a vodka factory.It only validates the negatives that you also see. If you were over your state this subject wouldn't even be brought up by you. I know this isn't psych 4 forum but nobody in >XI< wants to see anyone hurt or fail no matter--I know all these guy's and gals and they ALL care or they wouldn't be taking their time to write anything if they didn't--so.... +#1 #2 quit wallowing in it and surround yourself with positive people. Positive people tend to associate with positive people and bring each other up, and vice versa. You have many things that are great but you focus on what you don't or "should" have. It is a process but just try and think about when something makes you feel bad--which is where your brain will go directly when a problem arises, and divert it--think about what a good thing that --maybe this happened to test me and see if I can overcome this....and you will, and the more you do that the easier it becomes. To try and make others feel better when you hurt ,is temporary, but to make yourself feel better so as to help other people, will change everyone's life. Edited May 12, 2012 by RogueKill Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
RogueKill Posted May 12, 2012 Member ID: 1588 Group: ***- Inactive Clan Members Followers: 7 Topic Count: 84 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 904 Content Per Day: 0.18 Reputation: 139 Achievement Points: 5532 Solved Content: 0 Days Won: 3 Joined: 07/19/10 Status: Offline Last Seen: January 1, 2023 Birthday: 08/25/1966 Share Posted May 12, 2012 (edited) Forgive me if I'm speaking out of turn here. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. However is a gaming community website really the place to be discussing this? HAHA CASE IN POINT--- CAVEY you over-achieving fucker!! Love it---see.....be like Cavey, even his sig says "SHUT THE FUCK UP I'M GONNA KICK SOME ASS!!Even though he is only 4ft 3 and his penis...well we wont go there.LOL Edited May 12, 2012 by RogueKill Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options... Awards
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