Why I Did What I Really Had To... Let Me Explain

[hxtr]

I have had to say this to two peeps so I will explain here as I have nothing to hide and no ill will at all rather nothing by love for this place.

 

I'm so very OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) about certain things.

 

My first car was a 1989 Honda Accord and I use to clean my car to the point the engine was cleaner than the rest of the car. I would remove the tail lights and front light plus other to clean under them. I would power wash under my car to make sure it was clean. Had access to a lift at the time. I would dump the oil then run it to heat it up then dump it again and change oil and filter to make sure no old oil was in it. I had ZERO tarnish in my engine even at the millage of 164,000 miles +-. I waxed it every week if I could and she looked perfect all the time. I could not stand any dent or other on her and when I did get one.. every time I seen it... it turned my stomach. Just a 1989 Honda Accord but I loved it so much... then it was taken from me via an accident. I refuse to love a car like that again so my cars since then looked like shit but they all ran great. That was a needed change in my life as I spent way way to much time doing every preventive maintenance I could. Pretty fucked up if you ask me. My neighbors would joke with me.. So what is wrong with her today. I would say.. nothing just making sure. I waxed her in 30 degree weather.. didn't start out that cold but by the time I got done it did. Boy did my neighbors get a kick out of that. 

 

 

 

 

XI is 1989 Accord. I need to wreck it to move on to better and more important things.

 

I hope this makes sense. I have to lay off this site so I can move on. Otherwise I will keep doing things over and over expecting a different result. I have always been good at entertaining myself then others. Spent lots of my life alone and when you have nothing to do it drives me nutz. I have lots of things I need to do and I need to stop cleaning my damn car.

 

Hope you all understand and ZERO ill will to XI or any of you. In fact the complete opposite. I still even today love and miss my 1989 Honda Accord. No other car since means anything like it did and never will. They are a tool to get the job done and that is it. 

 

I really need to get things done and divert my skills or attention in other ways or I wont get them done. Losing my 1989 love of my life was the best thing that happened to me in the vehicle kind of sense. I knew everything about that car. EVERYTHING!

 

Let me tell you a story...... related to this car and it is happening again. I have 4 people that can confirm this. My wife, 2 kids and Best friend John Devaux. 

One morning I was dreaming. I dreamt I was going to my garage got in my car and started her up and was humm... something is wrong. I popped the hood and looked at the engine and seen my A/C compressor was broke. I woke up an a panic then had to call my best friends John Devaux. I always had to tell him my crazy dreams. 

 

We laughed and that was it. A few days later my A/C in my house went out. I was like fuck... it was the house A/C not my car. $2500 later had her fixed. Then a week or so later John's car in his beloved Honda 1995 Accord's A/C went out. He was so pissed at me. He said don't ever tell my your dreams again. A week or so later my A/C in my car went out. I was like... NO FUCKING WAY.

 

I started smoking pot after and other and it stopped my crazy dreams. 

 

If you go read a post about me almost going through a barricade and me having a dream my father was the one driving that almost but how viid it was.. this shit is happening to me again and I don't like what I am dreaming. 

 

I was told I had to stop this site but didn't want to. The omen was if the forum for us was not created. So glad it was not as I knew already I needed to step away but how can you when you love something so much. All I am doing is wrecking my 1989 Honda Accord again. 

 

I hope this clears things up..... I need to make changes and this is the only why I know how.

 

I will still be on TS, oovoo, and game once and a while but I need to put this site down. I have to so please understand it is not XI.. it is ME. 

 

[Boomer]

well then Hxtr my friend, I'll see you around!

 

Peace

[Sonovabich]

今日、私は日本語で話しているので、私の友人を大事にし、すぐにお会いしましょう

[dadda2]

fuck not gona buy a honda accord lol but know where your coming from so yea cool

[STONECLD]

take care of yourself bro

[HarryWeezer]

As I well know, you've got to do what you've got to do. In time, I will be back my good friend and I hope you will be too, so that we can both start over, together, as we did more than six years ago.

 

Peace, and all my best!!!!

Edited May 27, 2013 by SgtHarryWeezer

[JohnnyDos]

See HXTR : You gotta smoke a little,toke a little,that's the story of,that's the glory of,Grass.Kinda of a little poem (jingle) I learned in high school.Well you said it stopped your wierd dreams.

[FRENCHI]

vous avez des qualité que je n es pas , mes tracteurs aurrai bien besoin que j es la meme maladie que vous pour etre plus propre lol   

Mais je s ai de quoi vous parler , parceque j es un frére qui as 10 an de plus et qui as un peut votre maladie   

[Joe Canadian]

I respect you decission hx, hope you find some peace in your life soon, but theres a slight difference between the Accord and what is happening now: you lost the Accord in an accident, it wasnt even you choice. Now you are choosing to wreck the "XI Accord" hoping that it will make life easier for you. Take it easy buddy, get well and come back soon. This place will not be the same without your sense of humor

[Qball1]

good luck my friend, I hope you find what it is you are looking for.   Your buddy Qball

[FunkyChickn]

Good luck and take care m8. Hope you find some other form of Honda Accord

[Angel]

Still.....    

 

But I understand and I will always be your friend.  Just know my thoughts and prayers are with you.  *hugs*

[Damage_inc-]

more confused then ever.are you taking your  meds or are you  off them and  are you drinking?

Edited May 28, 2013 by Damage_inc-

[kswift420]

YA NOW HOW TO GET IN TOUCH WITH ME BRO.....

[Spartacus]

I'm gonna miss you Buddy....

[Noears711XI]

HXTR now tell me the truth did someone see your debut cooking show and offer you money to do more.

[tsw 8.5]

come to team sp.any time bud ..if you just want to shot the shit with old friends ..be cool ..that will help the dreams

[jointz]

ive heard this whole its not you its me speech before lol. hope you get things fixed up hxtr ! hope to see you back around though

[Astronomer]

Good luck Hxtr. Hope to see you back sometime once you've had some time to regroup and gain some perspective.

 

All the best,

 

 - Astronomer

[Hunter1948]

Be cool bud hope you find the answers your looking for.

[GhostfaceJim]

Good luck.

[Warface]

your too fucking wierd to go away for too long,,,,, you belong here with the rest of us wierdos,, you fit in perfectly with us and we are the only ones that can appreciate your whacked out personality,,, when the world questions you make sure you come back to us and realize your worth

[2_MANY_BEERS]

Your doing it again HXTR. Now your trying to perfect the perfect going to leave the clan post. STOP IT!!!!!!!   

 

Will miss you bud. Take Care

Beers

[HarryWeezer]

your too fucking wierd to go away for too long,,,,, you belong here with the rest of us wierdos,, you fit in perfectly with us and we are the only ones that can appreciate your whacked out personality,,, when the world questions you make sure you come back to us and realize your worth

 

Besides which, you had enough medals hanging on your chest to melt down and make a new car with.

Edited May 28, 2013 by SgtHarryWeezer

[BiG CheesE]

You are good people Hxtr, have a good journey in life bro, and dont forget them supercalifragilisticharmonyBiGMacWithsomecheesepleaseAndDontForgetSomeNastySauceexpialidociousnesshoes